M* ROCKET

To Quote

2009-04-27T23:41:00.002+08:00

"Being responsible sometimes means pissing people off. Leadership is not a popularity contest. Trying to please everyone or trying not to offend anyone puts you on the road to mediocrity. Making people mad is part of being a leader."

Colin Powell

Looking Forward

2009-02-19T12:04:00.002+08:00

There has been a lot I had to let sink in; realities I had to face, failures you have to live up with and chances you just missed. Those are probably one of the hardest stretches I had to live through. When I had a lot of doubt and fears on what lies ahead for me. I always tried to portray myself as strong willed, firm and unabashed. And I kept a straight face, well my eyebrows though oftentimes beg to disagree showing more emotions than a normal patch of solid hair can. Well anyway, the eyebrows should be another story, to add to my "to write list". For now I just want to look forward, I could already see clear skies on the horizon. I keep to myself a lot of cliches to keep up the spirit, and one sounds like this, It's not how fast you get there, its about pushing forward to your goal despite all that you had to undergo. I believe that makes me a better person, and I always believed.

The Best

2009-01-02T14:29:00.002+08:00

I've always looked forward to another post-Christmas get together with my two friends - Ollie and EJ - as we surely enjoy and have a great time. This year we made it farther in our road trip and we have conquered more of the South, perhaps we're ripe for a deep South trip. Every year we have something new, this year we are with my girlfriend, after spending dinner with my family in Tagaytay.

To cut short, the best title pertains to what could be the best. Its when my other friends get back home and we could do it all together, Chris, Boom, (busy) Gino, Jojo M.D. and the rest, then we will be having the best reunion ever, as for now the three of us continue to get together and await the big day to have the best trip ever.

Christmas Bulge

2008-12-26T14:24:00.002+08:00

Oh yeah! I got into that Christmas spirit of eating a lot. I just couldn't help myself to taste all the dishes on the table. Now I have a christmas bulge! It's not pretty but heck I enjoyed every bite. Now let's hope to

Publish Post

have the will to exercise.

nTH time

2008-12-04T12:11:00.001+08:00

Well I guess at least I haven't resorted to deleting and remaking my blog, just change of templates, hopefully I could write again, ooops another thing to do, will write later.. :)

Smacked!

2008-08-06T00:35:00.002+08:00

I was playing hard ball basketball and I got smacked in my right forearm. Smacked!!! I closed my eyes in pain, and walked blindly to midcourt trying to suppress the throbbing. I wasn't even sure who was the slapper, but guess that was for the good, I would've been after him the whole time after that.

The smack left a bloody mark on my forearm with an unusual letter I form in the middle, weird, must've been the spaces in the fingers that left the "I" mark, or maybe it's a sign! hahahah! or maybe it's an "H". hmmm...

(pic to be posted next time)

Carried-o Away

2008-08-04T23:25:00.002+08:00

Darn! Just when I was enjoying public transportation another quirk happens. Apparently an establishment in Carriedo is on fire and I am not informed. So I blindly got into the LRT 2 to Recto station, reached D.Jose to transfer then was smacked of the news into my face.

So what does a rookie-manila-commutter do so as not to appear naive. I went with the flow, I observed the people as to what public transport they would turn to, I actually almost hailed a cab but I withstood by my urge to go cheap.

And I waited earnestly, trying to figure out how to get to Vito Cruz, when I Thought I was ready I hopped on the jeep, then got turned away as quickly as I gave my fare and my desired destination. So I jumped to another one, and was turned back again. I was surprised there were actually three different jeep routes plying the area, and I luckily picked the two which were not going my way. And to top it off, the one going my way is always full, with men "on sabit". I wasn't in the mood to up my adventure.

Then I went back to the shade to re-think of my plan, and decided to just ask the nearest friendly people. Luckily I picked the right people to ask, and I rode with them to a Jeep towards Lawton and form there switched to a Jeep going to Vito Cruz, I insisted on paying for their fare out-of-thanks, they relieved me of further stress and they were worthwhile companions along the way.

It was fun and I'll do it all over again. Me-likey-going-public.

Incremental changes

2008-08-04T12:56:00.003+08:00

Well at least there's some things changing. I hope I could devote more time to bringing back my blog to life. I need a new concept, a driving force to make it a habit. Til' later!

Testing

2008-07-23T13:31:00.001+08:00

Hmm.. I wonder if I could get this to work again.. I have to.. :)

I have to focus again.. be dedicated and determined to write diligently.. I guess I should just let it flow, just keep on writing whatever comes..

Sapere aude!

2007-02-15T15:21:00.000+08:00

"Enlightenment is man's emergence from self imposed immaturity ("Unmündigkeit", translated here as the phrase "immaturity and dependence") for which he himself was responsible. Immaturity and dependence are the inability to use one's own intellect[1] without the direction of another. One is responsible for this immaturity and dependence, if its cause is not a lack of intelligence or education, but a lack of determination and courage to think without the direction of another. Sapere aude! Dare to know! is therefore the slogan of the Enlightenment."

Sapere Aude:Dare to know your candidates for this elections. Vote!

(Source: Wikipedia)

Be your Valentine

2007-02-14T01:56:00.000+08:00

Today is the the exemption to reason; it's more of feel the day --- feel love and be loved. To everyone who's loving, in-love or getting there, this is the HIGH day. Make a move, put aside all hindrances, for this day is an oppurtunity.

The myth and history of Valentine existed and lived to this day to show us the magical power of love. It pervades and defies the faculty of reason. It makes men, larger, bigger to be unreal. It summons men to be romantic, to go beyond the normality of existence. To exert one's existence in reaching out to the other person, who makes your existence more than worthy to own self.

This day will be encased in love-overflowing. And no one is allowed to defy it with reason, for love will percolate to it's existence and draw you to commit to the urge that calls you to love defying bounds, limits and blinds you to only your love's existence.

Whole-week thoughts

2007-01-23T12:43:00.000+08:00

So I'm into outreach again, this time I'm going to do all I could to make it happen, I know if it's good good it's bound to happen, no matter what. I hope I could get support, even just a little, just to make sure it happens, I hope.

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Integrity.
The single word to sum up the entire BECS07 convention. Alot of us disregard this single most important character. I myself have staked mine countless times, both in good and bad and well thought actions and foolish reactions. I just wish everyone would be aware that integrity rises above all. Far more than accomplishments and success; lies a deeper and more
fudamental measure of one's self. Integrity.

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Quitter-Winner
Winners never quit, but I guess it is wise to pause, stop, and assess oneself to fidn out if you're going the right way or doing it the right way. I have to remind myself to know when to quit, know when to stop and when to pause. Winners never quit, and I believe myself a winner and I know how to be wise, I just have to quit being a stupid-fool.

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FOCUS.
If there is one skill I always want to do consistently this must be it. If only I could focus myself on one thing at time, I'd be a genius. hahahah! Maybe I'll go to the library and look it up.. hahahha!

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And there's more..
Well that's me, there's more. More than everything the facade shows, beyond the seemingly guilt-less and strongcharacter, is a vulnerable soul with a kind heart. There's more in me
that no one could ever understand, not even me.

This is Me Now

2007-01-16T15:11:00.000+08:00

I wonder how people perceive of me as I change persepective, moods and attitudes. It has come to me that i could now more easily manage myself. How I feel and how I react and how I focus, everything is dependent on me. I am myself and no one else, all the other people are extensions of myself and never anyone could define me for who I am.

But then I also have obvious manifestations I couldn't hide, and you can often read it through my face. I guess it's too quick reacting that my facial expressions could easily foretell what I feel inside of me.

Moreover, rationalizing love and loving is admittedly my serious concern I could barely understand. For as much as I try to figure it out the more I get lost in a labyrinth of complex unexplainable feelings. Sometimes I wish it is much easier, but then perhaps, if it's easy then it's not love, or it's not deep, or maybe it's not real. Maybe, or maybe not.

Well for the moment, these thoughts abound my head, and they will define my year. I create myself from the ruins I have created of me and from these ruins, there, I rise.

To the Left

2007-01-14T13:16:00.001+08:00

First, seconded, and now third. thrice left, successive years. I guess alot of the next surprises in life won't be surprising anymore. This Willy Wonka world of mine is really something extraordinary.

Now I face this nostalgic longing feeling once more as I cope also again with the previous two's nostalgia. A school full of memories, a bestfriend now in the states and that someone you look forward to from afar. Now everyeach is further, farther to reach. Is this a test or someway to make myself better.

Then perhaps, it will all be vicarious. I will have to step up: me, myself and I, together I will have to turn this feeling of vast-void-in-me to a positive output. I ought to make myself better, I believe this is the challenge.

Now the chances of seeing them physically is a total nil. Therefore, I am excited for what FUTURE entails for me. My bestfriend, a post-grad school and someone ever-special.

I wish, that I see another shooting star.

To the Left

2007-01-14T13:16:00.000+08:00

On Being Perfect

2007-01-05T07:37:00.000+08:00

I am an avid fanatic of sports, often spending seeming endless hours immersed in various sports and sports-related activities. One of which is watching sports-themed movies, and yesterday I saw another Football movie on HBO. As of the moment I don't know the title but it is adpated from a book by H.G. Bissinger.

At first glimpse it looked another all too common flick -- on love for the game and relationships. But as I let myself into the storyline, there was so much more. It was even quoted towards it's climax --- it was on being perfect: To quote:

"Being perfect is being able to look at your team mate, friend straight in the eye and being able to admit to yourself that you didn't let him down. That you did every possible means you could."

(TBContinued later)

For the Year

2006-12-31T20:43:00.000+08:00

(I have to make this quick, I'm almost running out of time..)

Well 2006, I had a fantabulous year with you, in one word -- Catharsis.

I say thank you, to all that has happened, good and bad, bad and good. Now I look forward to 2007 and build on the new me. Now that I have finally realized my full potentials, my skills and my talent, my running phrase for the year: "I will be" or perhaps succinctly: "Be".

Year '007, I am ready! Here is Leandro Parreño Celles, to the world.

Note to myself:

1. Fix my room
2. Fix my car
3. Fix my cash flow, pay my debts and ask for deferred payments
4. Be a little nice
5. Improve my basketball jumpshot accuracy
6. Take care of my Dogs s'more!
7. Never stop believing that it will come, as well as never stop trying
8. Be a better son
9. Be a defensive driver
10. Be on time for everyone

More on self-improvement and expanding horizons:

1. Master French
2. Learn the musical instrument I always wanted
3. Learn how to make the spaghetti i always crave
4. Learn to make the perfect sunny-side ups
5. Dance (hahaha!)

deuxieme

2006-12-23T14:46:00.000+08:00

Second.

Deux = TWO.

Two days to go before CHRISTMAS!!! And I'm so excited, happy --- all postive all over.. I just love this year, and to catch a christmas lyrics with it, "It's the most wonderful time of the year!". I could already feel the Christmas Day Spirit, it's smoking sweet and lovely, like the hot peppermint mocha in Starbux times kazillion and more complex.

Second. Let's pause for awhile and reflect on the CHRISTMAS spirit, it only takes a second to realize the real spirit of the season which is far form the busy holiday cheering, gift-giving and eating alot. :D

Second and my next post is my 100th. Aww.. I love this blog of mine.

And still the girl I'm "trailing" all this time, SHE'S only SECOND.

SECOND TO NONE.

Merry Christmas to All!

Love and Cheers!

Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas

2006-12-20T09:47:00.000+08:00

My most favorite of all the Christmas songs as it never fails to warm my heart everytime I hear it play, often-more as I hum or sing along.

My most favorite lyrics of it all:
"Through the years we'll always stay together if the fate allows.."

Haay,, it's so timeliss, I could listen to it the whole day and never get tired, and still feel the warming sensation it brings..

"Have yourself a merry little Christmas now..". As we all should, it tells us well about the real christmas spirit.

"Let you heart be light", "..troubles out of sight", I love christmas so much

"..friends who are dear to us.."

During this time of the year I feel the busy and hectic lives as we thread to the Chritmas Day, but come the DAY itself, when we are all gathered in the Christmas table with our family, our friends or sometime by ourselves, we feel the world in a standstill, a silence of the mind and peace in our hearts prevail. Love is the spirit and forgiveness is the habit.

Now if only Christmas flows through the rest of the year..

My Father's Day: December 16

2006-12-16T18:27:00.000+08:00

Today is my father's birthday, and amongst all the birthday of his that we've celebrated, this seems to be the best for simplistic reasons. Peace, Love and Harmony, perhaps could best summarize the reason.

My father ages with the birthdays, but the years are not evident, I have lost count of his age and never bothered. Years numerated is not important, it's the years generously appreciated by many for my Father. His wisdom les in the people he has reached out with and to his service.

My highest salute to my Father, Leonardo "Boy" Celles, to whom which I will not be Leandro "Mickey" Celles, the son.

DECEMBER 16, 2006

Joyeux Noel

2006-12-12T09:00:00.000+08:00

Month: December
Weather: Chilly
Day: 12th

And it's morning 9:03 on my computer, the breeze is cool, and the sunlight is warm -- the feeling is CHRISTMAS. I love Decemeber, being the merry month. My father's birthday month and mine as well (ehem). People during thus season become more active, busy, loving, caring, some become a grinch, snob and hibernate. None-the-less it's a movement away from the ordinary. So this is an extra-ordinary month.

I love the feeling, as if everyone's more connected. People have more reasons to extend themselves from their own-life-caring-only attitude. Well at least it happens in a year, otherwise, life would be such a bore. Of course February has the other extraordinaire-distinction month, but it is a little exclusive, unlike christmas, which exempts no one, and give unlimitered reason to be.. simple put a better person.

From the bottom of my heart, I wish everyone a(early christmas greeting)

JOYEUX NOEL!!!

Why the Moon

2006-12-11T11:11:00.000+08:00

One day I will know, one day i will know
I know that constant staring and admiration will bring me nowhere
Looking that you've majestically grown at this time of the year
that anywhere I am, when I look up I see you glowing
Beautifully as the most precious jewel among the many treasures of the night sky
I yearn.

But my feet, earthbound, I have to soar, to fly, to be a rocket to get to you
when I am still just a mere human, bare, longing.
I dream, i will reach you, i see it as vivid as real in my mind
I think not like thinking, but thinking and living the thought
will you be the same when I see you again.

Oh moon, you have been there all along
I have always been fascinated since I realized your existence,
that you have always been there, far, un-reachable, un-touchable
Only in thought do I reach you, feel you, adore you
Then I believe that you are real.

I have to be a rocket
I have to see you for real
I know that you are more than just the most beautiful and magnificent of the night sky
There's more, more real, more than real, more than reality.
I seek you, to see you and to feel you
To know that your real
and to let you know that I am.

For Me It’s You

2006-12-03T07:34:00.000+08:00

Leandro Parreno Celles
Written: Nov.23, 2006

Seven years since I last saw her, and the most recent we’ve met was this 7th of October. Nothing much has changed of her. She still takes my breath away, with her mere presence, with my sight of her; the way she got me at hello the first time I saw her eight years ago, when we were still 2nd year High School, in our interaction. Since, she left this mark in me, and it never faded but rather grew and lived.

The time we never saw each other, she has never left my mind, more my heart. She was always at my hindsight, at the back of my head, every small correlating thought that is possibly related or linked to her; I make an inference and some investigation. During all those years, there were no calls, only a couple of text messages exchanged. Because she went to DLSU, I was in ADMU, polar opposites, both of us striving and challenging ourselves to excel in our own fields of interest. I also had two relationships along the way, both lasted considerably long. But throughout all those years, I have never lost contact with her, indirectly, through common friends do we catch the “hi” and “hello”, furthermore through intersecting acquaintances do I get information on how she’s been all this time at random time and place in our separate lives. I never wonder if she thinks of me, but I always think of her; to me, she is the “girl on the pedestal”, not one compares to her in her full being as a person.

She never had any relationship whatsoever that I knew; she was the more serious type. She breaks the conventions, the trends, the norms. She is a mystery that indulges my curiosity with a deep desire to understand and to seek meaning by all possibilities.

Now, still I’m after her, still I’m a believer, still I’m hoping; perhaps hoping against hope, believing hope, and chasing just hope. I am not hopeless, because I am a believer of fate and destiny; that someone is out there meant for you, waiting patiently as you have been searching almost endlessly.

But all throughout this uncertainty of waiting, of hoping, of “loving” HER without expecting anything in the future; I still aspire, that we will end up together. Every time I look up the sky, the stars are my guide. I know that every time I look up and see the constellations aligning; they give meaning. I know in my mind and in my heart and by fact of nature that she’s also under the same stars and constellations. That we may not see each other for quite some time again, months, years, couple of years, maybe another seven years, but as long as we remain to saunter the same earth wherein which all of us live on, I will never lose hope; as I will never lose hope as long as I am living and have breathe; because for me it’s HER, and NO ONE else.

Catch YOU, when YOU fall

2006-11-19T21:41:00.000+08:00

..because I am always behind YOU.

I will never let my sight off YOU.

because I will always be there.

because I will..

only for YOU....

Here's one for YOU

2006-11-17T07:31:00.000+08:00

I will NEVER stop.

Because only TIME will tell..

Wether....

I am HOPING..

with MY FULL HEART.

I will SEE you again,
you may not see me. But I will.

I wish YOUR BEST.
I am always watching you.

But don't worry;
I don't expect
I wont regret.

I just DO IT
Because I MEAN IT

You may "not" UNDERSTAND; and many say so to me
that I am making things up
but I KNOW you do
The REASON I'm HEAD over HEELS over YOU

LEANDRO CELLES
QUICK POETRY

MY FATHER's Speech

2006-11-13T09:28:00.000+08:00

(Speech My FATHER delivered Friday, November 10, 2006 @ the San Juan Municipal High School Seminar for Young Student Journalists)

I have always believed that the ONE of the BEST talent a person could POSSESS is the ability TO WRITE. And I really ADMIRE people who could creatively and FEARLESSLY express their:

THOUGHTS, FEELINGS and BELIEFS…

…into a beautiful and clever writing, It’s definitely a GIFT from GOD. That’s why YOU, the BRIGHT STUDENTS who are present here, should be proud and thankful that he had bestowed it upon you. But at the same time, you must realize that you have the RESPONSIBILITY to nurture that gift and use it WISELY.

The PEN is a MIGHTY tool. In fact, its power is IMMEASURABLE, it could CREATE: it could DESTROY. It could give LIFE. It could KILL. So it’s really up to the brilliant minds who hold THE PEN to choose which path to take.

Right NOW, there’s no denying our country is in pretty bad shape. And it needs all the HELP it could muster to restore the PEACE and UNITY it ONCE enjoyed. It’s a tough goal and we have a long road ahead ---- BUT it’s not an impossibility, AND YOU, the FUTURE JOURALISTS of this country, will have a lot to do in fulfilling it. You NOW have the TALENT and hopefully as well as the ZEST to DEVELOP it. But BEYOND that, what’s important is for you to have the PASSION to make something SIGNIFICANT out of it.

Strive to be worthy of THAT GIFT starting NOW. You don’t have to be a big-time journalist before you could start creating positive changes. Even at your level, your POWER to INFLUENCE and INSPIRE your colleagues and audience is IMMENSE. And ONE day, it would be YOUR GENERATION that could be able to UNITE our NATION in PEACE.

So good luck to all of YOU…
CONGRATULATIONS!!!

From Malaysia -- "To Infinty and Beyond!"

2006-11-08T04:47:00.000+08:00

Through self-realization, could you only experience true knowledge. My first travel abroad-ever --- which happened to be in KL,Malaysia made know more about MYSELF rather than my experience of the country. It opened a new VISION in me; A Vision that I've kept hidden, brewing in myself, for a long time. And now I have realized it; closer to reality.

(TBC)

In-LOVE

2006-11-01T05:24:00.000+08:00

Who is to question me when I declare I'm in this state of INSPIRED BLISS -- Not one can, No one could.

I am the master of my ship, ..captain of my soul, so said in "INVICTUS". And I alone know the course of my actions, I foresight, hindsight and risk.

Love is my Life, for living is all about Loving.

I can be the BEST person in the world, but I can never be complete without the ONE that completes me.

the ONE that completes me, is the ONE that inspires me.

SHE is the woman on the PEDESTAL. No one comes close to her, all are a distant third, not one is second.

Now that I have declared a state of being In-LOVE, I have to finally employ the requirments of LOVING just ONE, just HER.

NOW, that I'm a better person, getting better, trying to close-on the BEST I am as much as possible, doing the best I could. I am a better Lover. I am an EXPERIENCED LOVER.

EXPERIENCE brings out KNOWLEDGE with-in. I have searched far, sought for myself, tried to find the ONE that completes me, only to realize that it HER, the ONE on the PEDESTAL. SHE who has been distant but was never far from me. SHE is there but I am always near. SHE who has never left my mind, nor have left HER mark on my HEART eversince.

In my state of LOVE, TIME does not exist, only oppurtunities, only MOMENTS; WEEKS, MONTHS even YEARS are abstract unmeasured and not valued.

if took me SEVEN to see YOU, and another SEVEN or more to be with YOU. GOD knows it will happen, and I will make it happen, with GOD's grace, with my BEST SHOT. I will be complete as YOU will be...

BUT for now, I will be PATIENT; PATIENCE not my virtue, but for you I am and will be.
Because I LOVE, not even expecting anything in return, just giving my BEST SHOT. The very BEST, the ONE i have never done before; the one i never imagined I could, the one i only though happens in books and movies.

The BEST SHOT only for YOU. I LOVE.

(Mickey on spontaneous love)

Nothing Compares to You

2006-10-30T23:21:00.000+08:00

So for probably the next three days this will be the only song playing on my computer. Just like what I previously did with Train's, "When I Look to The Sky".

To shortcut because of time constraints.. Hey.. if you just know, Nothing -- No one -- not even a close second, compares to YOU.

(to be edited soon)

BEST THINGS in LIFE are FREE

2006-10-30T10:49:00.000+08:00

Study, work, relationships and spirituality, the essentials to well being and happiness in LIFE. What consists of these essentials to me is a basic premise of being FREE. They couldn't be achieved in it's pristine sense by any other means but by effort, hard work, honesty, determination and FAITH.

(will eat and tinker with the thought: 2B cont. also)

FOCUS and HOCUS

2006-10-25T06:45:00.000+08:00

Life is too short some may say; but Life is definitely a blast I say. It's all about having and knowing FOCUS and HOCUS: It's my Yin and Yang. The balance that makes me a better person.

(2B cont.)

ONE BIG STEP

2006-10-20T07:00:00.000+08:00

It takes a single step to start a journey and begin a plan and today I'm making ONE BIG STEP FORWARD. To paraphrase: The first step Neil Armstrong took on the moon, is to the world is a HUGE LEAP FORWARD. Meanwhile to me, a signifcant FIRST BIG STEP and a huge leap forward to my FUTURE and to the people around me, and those who believes in me.

I'll give hope, I'll inspire, I'll give back to the people what they deserve. Today is the first BIG DAY; when I start to CHANGE the world to become BETTER.

MICKEY CELLES
thoughts-in-action

IMPACT PLAYER!

2006-10-16T01:44:00.000+08:00

I was trying to figure out what kind of person/player I have developed myself into. Turns out I am no MAIN MAN or the BEST PLAYER or BEST PERSON in the game and in life respectively. But what I am is an IMPACT PLAYER!

I am the next person behind the Main Man you could depend, I am the one you may not notice but is working his ASS to contribute and be productive. I may be similar to what they call the Sixth Man, but much a much more better parallelism would be: I am Michael Jordan's Scottie Pippen.

Pippen, who almost played his entire career alongside Micahel Jordan have been overseen by critics and many others for his value to the Bulls Dyansty. Although in reality he was a vital cog to the GREAT MACHINE that was CHICAGO BULLS of the mid-90s. Jordan was the orchestrator the MAIN MAN, the one you SEE, idolize and imitate. Pippen although not neglect of Fans has nowhere near waht #23 has in all standards. Except for a heart as BIG as AIR JORDAN, same PASSION, INTENSITY and HARDWORK. All these without expecting to be the NEXT big star.

Did he ever complained? Hell do I know, we're not close, and I'm pretty sure MJ takes care of his sidekick so much. But this is where my "Pippen-MICKEY CELLES" theory splits. I complain first, then do the work anyway, this skill I have to learn form Mr. Scottie, don't complain too much Mickey-boi, take it from the Nike Ad: JUST DO IT!

My Father's ACE

2006-10-13T09:10:00.000+08:00

I always belived in myself and my abilities, my potential and my skill, my foresight and my ability to strategize.

I am my Father's ACE. His best card. I'm not sure if he knows it. But his BEST CARD is on hand, he just thinks it's not the time to put it on the table. But actually it's already INFLUENCING the GAME.

The ACE will be a BIG FACTOR, for it will change the complexion of the GAME and be an instant impact. My Father himself may be surprised that his ACE is already playing, for he may not even realize it's in his hands yet. When the ACE enters the GAME and is played. It will be an EDGE not many foresee..

I AM the ACE!

I Smell NO-EL

2006-10-12T08:35:00.000+08:00

And NO! This is not a Christmas Message! I believe that the administration is "cooking" a plot, setting up the mindset of the people to believe that there is much cahos and confusion in our SYSTEM and SITUATION that the only means to SOLVE this PREDICAMENT is CONSIDERING to a DRASTIC change --- CHANGE THE CONSTITUTION.

PEOPLE BEWARE!

I want to learn the Keys

2006-10-10T12:42:00.000+08:00

I have never figured out how to play the guitar.. I always wished I knew though.. but now something came up in mu head and I want to learn the keys.. the piano or organ.. or is it keyboards? Which is which, which the switch I am not sure, I barely understand their fundamentals. Now I have to learn soemthing from zero-level, how fun!!!

Anyone has any recommendations on how I could learn, just tell me please.. Thanks!

My 77th Blogger Post

2006-10-10T10:18:00.000+08:00

Although I'm no numerologist I'm very fond of numbers. But I don't play numbers game like LOTTO, or Jueteng, well not yet.. maybe I'll take a chance and WIN a prize.. hahahha! But numbers to me are fun oft has meanings.. like now I have more 7s in my day.. 77 days before christmas and my 77th post, I'm just so fond of SEVEN..

Perhaps because I feel like I'm on 7th heaven now..

77 days before Christmas

2006-10-10T10:15:00.000+08:00

And now the race is ON! First time in my life that I'm looking forward for a BIGTIME christmas! This definitely will set the bar on all my christmas experience. I'm getting ready for this Christmas.. This CHRISTMAS is MY CHRISTMAS. And I will be Santa Claus. But I will not kiss anyones Mom w/o permission. hahahaha!

An Open Letter

2006-10-09T00:05:00.000+08:00

To you, yes you reading this.. I know life is hard, but you are stronger. Whatever it takes to achieve your goal, if you really want it, you can achieve it no matter what. Beat the ODDS, get EVEN and Push for MORE! Be positive. No one destroys your day, except when you decide to have it wrecked in the first place. You can always deny the negative vibes. You are in full control of yourself.

STRESS is deceiving, don't let yourself be fooled by this devil. It's a pigment of imagination that stress brings you down; because it's your DRIVE that brings you UP! You are in the pedestal of life! RIDE HIGH! You may be fast, but be careful.. Haste makes waste. You tend to forget alot when you hurry. The solution is time managment.

LOVE, and give it your best, don't give half a heart's effortor you'd get half a chance.Love yet do not expect returns, you are loving because you are human and because you DESIRE to give IT/HER your BEST!

WORK and give your 110% or more! You don't get much CHANCES in this life until you MAKE IT HAPPEN! Develop your POTENTIAL and find out your best ASSET, do not be a LIABILITY, and just like in Accounting, minimize expense and maximize revenues.

In BUSINESS, there's no such thing as free lunch.. which is definitely not ABSOLUTE. You can always be a good friend and a charitable person. Always seek the good in the other person. Believe that everyone could contribute in their own way, BIG or small. Everyone you meet can surely HELP you, just give them a GENUINE offer.

LIFE is a challenge you are supposed to ENJOY, lest you grow wirnkles and get stressed. LIFE is GOOD, but you can make it the BEST! You just have to BELIEVE IN YOURSELF THAT in EVERYTHING there IS A POSSIBILITY!

by:
MICKEY CELLES
stopped-looked and listend

Give Me 7 on a 7 after 7

2006-10-08T17:38:00.000+08:00

Seven random thoughts on the 7th of October, and breaking a seven year spell.

7. Gino finally graduated!

6. I learned a new talent I have: "Parkour" (I'm not sure of the spelling but it's French).

5. My 4 remaining puppies who were previously seven are all healthy and "tabaching".

4. We traveled so fast in SLEX I didn't get late (uncommon for me).

3. I saw SITTI and she has mesmerizing talents.

2. I learned how to get to BF.

1. I saw SomeONE I haven't seen for seven years.

Hmm.. Now I'm really fascinated with no.7, which is also the only jersey number I use in basketball; but much more with no.1. :-)

Some Things Never Change

2006-10-08T11:14:00.000+08:00

In life they say that the only permannent thing is change. But to me, it comes with a special exception, because simply some thing/s never change. No matter the time, no matter the distance. It stays.

(2B.Continued)

My Precious Pups

2006-09-26T00:22:00.000+08:00

Two of my puppies died today. The first was named "Poly", who was sick since yesterday night only and died earlier in the afternoon. Afterwhich I immediately had all the remaining puppies, the 6 left, rushed to the vet. They were given deworming shots and sent home. Two of those six are pale and sluggish, the doctor advised that they be brought back tom. if they wouldn't be eating. Unfortunately for the pup I named "Chocolate", he suddenly went in a convulsions at around 1045pm and died after 30mins.

When I first heard "Poly" died suddenly, I got mad at myself for not being able to take care of them, I was sick at the same time, saturday I was sick already, and Sunday sick as hell. It was ate Mae who was tending the puppies as she always does when I'm away. I didn't have the courage to take a look at "Poly" anymore so I didn't went down to see her one last time, I just said a lil' prayer and thanks.

On the other hand, "Chocolates" demise I had to witness since we were having dinner and all the puppies were in the house. So i heard her cry helplessly, convulsing with my mom and my tita trying to make her warm and calm her down. But unfortunately she suddenly silenced and it was all over. I lost another puppy...

There's another one who's sick, her name is "Lucky" because she's the seventh of the seven. I hope she stands up to her name and survive the night, so we can bring her back to the vet in the morning and have her confined just to make sure she survives.

There are four others who are healthy and has no symptoms of any sort of dysfunction. My favorite puppy "Chuchai", my bro's favorite "Kola", my mom's favorite "Iska" aka "daga" and lastly"Ba-et". I hope they stay healthy. I love each and everyone of them.

Over Fatigue

2006-09-24T20:12:00.000+08:00

I didn't know I could do so much in such a short period of time. I did alot from thursday to saturday and in return I get one hell of a sickness, come Saturday morning, which worsened this morning -- Sunday.

Well at first though I was thinking it's all worth it.. But as I felt worse, burning sensation and feeling enflamed, I just wish I've thought about it better.

Here's a run down of what I did: Researched early morning thursday, wen't to my dad's office to socialize and do homework, then afternoon, brought to the mechanic for some repairs, then went home did more homework, then went to school. And I forgot dinner!!! So when I went home I was awfully tired and hungry, and take note I am supposed to play basjetball with my San Beda Law Friend's at the San Juan Gym from 11p,-1am, but I fell asleep and woke up at 2am. I couldn't sleep anymore so surfed the net and come 4am, me and my cousin ate in Banang's. We went home 530am. I slept and woke up at 9am, so this is a Friday already. Feeling basketball-itchy, me and my cousin played hard-nosed basketball from 10-12noon and it was soo exhausting.. Then I we ate lunch, then I had siesta of 30mins. Afterwhich I did my homework then went to school, and by this time I felt a little sick already.

And then luck of all lucks, San Beda won it's first, Seniors championship in 28 years! Being a BEDAN, I immediately went to San Beda after my class, I only had a sandwhich for dinner. In San Beda, I partied like loco, moshpit/slamman, which I did the first time. I got drizzled with rain, but I didn't mind. I did alot of walking and talking, since alot of people were there, my batchmates and friends I know. I went home at 2am. And I have a class at 940am which I was able to attend still.

But Saturday I already had that feeling that I will be sick-bigtime! I drank alot of water, and peed every 10mins or so.. When I went home, I was burning, So I slept immediatley, woke up took mediactaions, and drank lots of water, I think I finished more than two pitchers. I just had to get well because I organized a block gimik fotthe night, and though I badly want not to go anymore, i just couldn't since I was the one who did most of the inviting.

Saturday night, I made myself ready, feeling a lil' better, I dressed like an eskimo, with a bonnet, in longsleeves w/ an undershirt, w/ extra thick socks and a thick jacket. But then I realized you just have to know your limits, after a couple of hours in the Fort, I felt like burning again, so I went to the van and rested, and at the same time took medications. Long story, I eneded up going home at around 3am, since I had to drop off my two blockmates. I though I was feeling ok.

But come, Sunday morning, as I woke up, I was freezing and felt like 2 feet off the ground. I tried to eat breakfast but my tastebud is awry, I just couldn't eat. So I went back to bed and curled to a help-me-God-I-feel-so-bad position. Good thing my mom took care of me, like a nurse that she was, and she was able to control my very high fever, I even remeber my face looking read in the mirror. I was half awake when she stayed and applied cold remedy to me to lower my temperature. Now after around 8 hours I think I feel alot better, no more fever. What's left is a bad cough and a hard stick phlegm. But that will do, next time I will take care of myself better.

Inspired Bliss

2006-09-21T06:31:00.000+08:00

I wouldn't want to put lyrics as an entry, though I almost couldn't resist. So I did the next best thing put the lyrics below before the tagboard. Btw if someone could explain and teach me how to put the tagboard and the lyrics at same level, please.. I'm pretty sure it's easy, something with columns.. but I need my time to do something important today.

So what sums up my recent days.. Well I guess the song captures it best. It's BLISS, by Alice Peacock, a song I knew a year ago, and has stuck to be my favorite has sort of become my frequent anthem. Everytime I open the computer it just has to play to set the mood.

Hmm.. life is amazing, it's almost unreal how suddenly things change. When I thought I would settle for one-step-at-a-time, I get a boost and get more stride with my steps, something to that effect. It's also unreal how unexpected someone (appears) again. If I was to compare to who the unexpected appeared to a ghost, I wouldn't mind the ghost because I was mesmerized by the one who's unexpected.

But that someone who was unexpected was long anticipated. So much like a dream, a fairy-tale, and a movie; I anxiously yet patiently awaited for the moment. And now it has happened, unfolding, beggining. I am crossing the boundary of vicarious bliss to a real experience.

Overwhleming thoughts and emotions fills me, I may have been a good boy after all to deserve such blessings. One thing is for sure this chance, I wouldn't take for granted, this chance, I would carefully craft a plan for. This chance I have been waiting for years. This is the chance to see her again.

Bright Day: Good Start

2006-09-20T06:23:00.000+08:00

A new day! I wake up early despite staying up late. It's amazing how I could now manage 5 hours sleep just to wake up excited to start the day and do alot! So I thank God and ask for his blessings that I may be able to do all the things I have planned. And that San Bould win over PCU; that was just an afterthought. Go Red Lions!!!:-)

BTW:
what's happening in Thailand..
Chris is now working in the States! Go bestfriend!!! moolah!
Ollie got me a courtside ticket for today's championship game w/o extra pay!!!
EJ Mac may finally be my neighbor!!!
I'll see Karla later..
Gino soon!!!

This life is getting exciting by the minute!!! I always get excited as to what's next..

VVI 2

2006-09-19T09:54:00.000+08:00

O' still I'm very inspired! It's like seeing your stars align over your head and leading you where to go. As if God's plan is unfolding right before my very eyes. Now I can say with confidence, without any regrets, beaming with hope and courage to face the present and work on my future. I know who I am, who I want to be and how I will become the greatest person that I could. I am Rocket!

VVI

2006-09-16T00:03:00.000+08:00

Nyehehe.. So what more?!!! I guess these are the days you'd love to have.. Now I'm VVI --- Very Very Inspired and smiling to full extent. I grasp for words to describe but emotion fill my sensations. Basta I'm VVI.

Friends' Migration: Far and Near

2006-09-14T11:43:00.000+08:00

People come and go. Many of our friends, even the closest suddenly leave. I myself am a victim of this unusual phenomenon in our society. My bestfriend Chris Zulueta altogether with his family to live in the United States. Another good friend of mine left for Dubai, Ginoboi sees himself in Canada in the near (or far) furture, meanwhile Boom is seriously considering migrating after finishing Law in UP Diliman, to make it big time in the US. :-)

Leaving this country is foremost a personal decision. I have no qualms to anyone leaving as long as he knows truthfully his purpose of migration, his plans and if it would be really be better for him. Otherwise I would be one of the first persons to ask him to reconsider his plans.

Personally, I hate this current trend of migration. It carries with it a feeling of helplessness that moving to another country is the only way to have a better life. It's as if we have given up on our country and have fixated only on ourselves to save. But my opinion doesn't hold for those who are working for their families, and are only there to work and not to settle.

The only good migration news for me is the possiblity of my very good friend Ej Macadenden to move a stone's throw away from our house. Even Gino's migration from Pureza to Cainta is a good news, at least we have a new place to go. As long as my good friends migrate to somewhere we don't need an airplane to reach them is definitley still a good news for me.

My best friends, I value so much. For it's a fact in life, many people come and go, and you may lose everything material but still they stay with you, through thick and thin, always with a helping hand. Just like all those cliches they never fail to work, well most of them, still like cliches.

But to all my friends, no matter where you are from Orange County, Florida to Dubai to Cainta to Manila, no matter how far the friendship remains. Our deep friendship could well compensate for the Far Distance.

Does Corruption breed?

2006-09-09T17:06:00.000+08:00

I believe that this country can curb corruption. I also believe that it is the younger ones, those who have not been corrupted by the system who can lead against this evil that has penetrated deep into our culture. Other than that you have to be an idealist with a strong convictions, believing and withstanding your moral affirmations.

Like Arvind Kejriwal, an Indian, a former tax revenue collector. After experiencing working in the government, he realized the corruption persists because of the lack of trasparency. He then lead the creation of Parivartan -- a civic movement that aims for transparency and accountability in the government. He also advocated the passage of Right to Information Act (RTI) which enables the citizen to ask for the details of govenrment transactions and fight corruption. Thus he was awarded the Ramon Magsaysay Emergent Leadership award in 2006.

Are people like Arvind Kejriwal rare or non-existent in this country? We have alot of socio-civic organizations which barely makes an impact, are they toothless or just helpless. The Government itslef is trying to fight corruption, with simple task force such as the one against the use of Gov't vehicle for private use. Also the investigation of some government officials who have lied in their Statement of Assets and Liabilities etc. But looking at it closer, the people thay go after are the "little fishes".

Could this government and its citizenry muster the stregth to launch a hard-nosed corruption drive. One that seeks trasparency and accountability from all its members and transactions. Or is it an impossibility in this administration.

This administrations is number one culpable for this impossiblity for the following reasons: that PGMA has never faced directly the charges of manipulating the elections, thus her legitimacy itself is in quiestion; that until now, they have yet to give verdict on the case of President Joseph Estrada; add to that the former AFP comptroller Garcia who amassed thousands of dollars and is still facing a 303million plunder case and four counts of perjury in the Sandiganbayan; linked to that is the case of the failed revolt of the benevolent Magdalo soldiers.

Where is justice and equality in this country. I was bamboozled by my friend's narrative of how she worked as a Senator's staff and witnessed huge corruption from everyone. Moreover bewildered by her claims that she was "not getting much" since corruption was all over and leaves only drops for her. Damn. What has gotten into her now. A couple of months working in the govenrment and she seeks her share.

Surprisingly, or not, corruption persists even in school's student govenrments. a friend of mine shares how they padded the price of a bandana used for bar ops. I was aghast, that it's so prevalent, and that was Law school student government. What more do you expect for this up-coming lawyers-to-be.

Although I'm not blind to this having my own experiences and anecdotes to tell, I am proud to say that I maintain my conviction to fight corruption. My father,I would often hear, that he could bear losing everything except his dignity, and he is a public official for 20 years.

Could someones idealism be reversed? Is the corruption too deep rooted to fend off and resist? Have we lost faith entirely on this nation? How about to ourselves? Do we just forget the moral values that we learned for so long in school?

I think now it's become a matter of personal faith and conviction to fight corruption. Otherwise corruption indeed breeds. So where do you belong?

Let's Get Together Boys

2006-09-08T11:54:00.000+08:00

Oi Gino, JoJo, Boom, Ollie and Ej! Kasama rin sina Gerald.. sino pa ba? si Chris!? hahaha! teka sino pa nga ba? hahaha! O basta since mga 1 or 2 years na tayo di nagkakasama ng buo, eto na talaga, may date pa, parang mga gig ni Jojo, at advanced announcement pa ha!

Eto mga sure na gimik natin, baka di na natin mamukaan isa't-isa pag di pa tayo nag-kitakits..

October 7:
Grad party ni Gino sa Cainta, kasi lilipat na sila ng bahay dun, kasi mahirap daw tubig sa Pureza, di kagaya sa Cainta, pag baha dun, matagal mawala tubig.. di ba Gino? Lalo na pag nag-earthquake, may fault line pa naman dun.. so ok dun! hahahha!

November (long weekend):
di ba birthday ni Maca ng November 1. Di naman tayo pwede ng November 1. Busy si maca mag-blow ng birthday candles sa ibat-ibang sementeryo. Tayo naman sindi pa ng sindi.. so puyat siya nun.. So first time over night ata tayo somewhere.. Sagot ko na sasakyan, presence niyo na lang kailangan. Post-Chris long trips na toh.. sayang di natin nakasama si Chris kahit isang beses lang.. :(

Decemeber (around my birthday):
ayun isa pang roadtrip toh malamang.. mas malayo ng konti sa November para may progress naman tayo. Kung Tagaytay sa November, mga Subic yung December.. O kaya kung Subic yung Nov., Baguio yung Dec. O kaya, Baguio---Bicol!! Hahahahah! Wala naman sigurong may curfew ng 2am saten??? ang ta-tanda na natin gumala naman tayo ng malayo! teka baka gusto niyo din mag-Puerto o kung saan mang beach, ayos lang.. Pero sa ngayon, umpisahan muna natin sa Grad. party ni Gino sa October 7 sa Cainta. Then ayusin na natin yung mga iba pa..

Take note, si Ollie may birhday din ng January, si Gino February, si Jojo - May, ay si Boom pa pala, January din.. hahaha! Si Gerald alam ko September eh.. hanapin nga natin si GeCoy!!! Birthday galore pala natin 'tong November-Februrary.. nawalan na tayo ng July eh.. mag-compensate na lang tayo.. hahahah! Go Chris padala ka naman ng pamasko! email nyo si Chris para bumista agad! hahahahah! chriztetaz@yahoo.com

Changing Idols

2006-09-07T11:24:00.000+08:00

Lately I have been playing basketball 3x a week. And again I have rekindled my love for the game. Basketball is still my number one sport, hobby and past time. It's incorporated to almost every aspect of my life.

My most favorite basketball player of all time is Charles Barkley, and I loved him for how he played the game and not so much for his off-court candors. He plays with his heart, full of passion, powered by his emotions and with great leadership. Although he would still have a place at the top of my basketball idols, I have decided to take on a contemporary icon, still with the same flair, passion and leadership.

I choose Joseph Yeo as my new idol! With his fade-away jumpers that I adore and try to imitate. I just love it when he carries the team with his explosive offense and sticky defense. Then with so much confidence pumps-fist with every big basket.

Playing the game brings me closer to my idols, imitating their style and play. I may be no Sir Charles or Yeo but I play the game with as much explosion as they do.

With Great Anticipation

2006-09-06T16:31:00.000+08:00

Just out of the blue, good things just happen and you just couldn't describe it. When your heart jumps with joy, and your mind accelerates full of excitement. When the apparent endless waiting and dreaming may finally come to an end and your illusion become a reality.

When the moment comes. Struck. Maybe my eyes would turn blind. Euphoria.

Street Party

2006-09-06T01:23:00.000+08:00

Well it seems the stage are being set for another euphoria in the streets. The Arroyo administration and her cohorts in the House are trying to railroad and push for a change to a parliamentary form of government.

Now the House has just passed a resolution for Constitutional ammendments in outstanding obscenity. By-passing the opposition and not consulting the committee with an expanded resoultion. Word that were used by the opposition congressmen are: "farce", "mockery", "brazen","gangster-type" etc. all of which have been manifested by this admistration --- whose legimacy itself is unresolved.

People get ready. For if you still seek for truth, clamor for the real changes that are needed and still believe and love this country; we'll see you soon in the streets.

Excerpts from Randy David

2006-09-03T14:20:00.000+08:00

I offer my highest praise and admiration to Randy David for his straight to the point analysis of the social dilemmas of our nation. If only everyone in the government subscribes to him and reads with an open mind, perhaps the "perpetual light" may shine upon our gloom-blinded nation.

On his article today entitled, "Systems and People", he states regarding the perverse efforts to change the constitution:

"The success of any system of government basically depends on the readiness of a people to make it work as it is supposed to work in theory. Even the “best” system is likely to be corrupted by bad politicians and immature voters. But, on the other hand, a system that has proved dysfunctional in some countries may produce good outcomes in others."

He pinpoints the real battlefront of our nations problem..

"Corruption and patronage are nurtured in the soil of excessive wealth and absolute poverty. The basic problem of our country today is not the form of government but the obsolete political-economic structure that has consigned the vast masses of our people to a life without hope."

Then provides a grim example of hopelessness in our Govt' to take care of its people..

"One does not need to turn to social theory, to see that there is something wrong with a society that exports thousands of its doctors and nurses every year even as it fails to provide medical care to more than half of its population. Or, sends abroad millions of young parents to work as servants in foreign homes while their own children grow up alone."

This article of Randy David alone simply explains the reality obscured and closes the case for the need of an immediate change of government. Rather we should deal with haste the curing of a corrupted culture in our government, and to stop the perversion of our democracy and Constitution by self-serving demagogues.

Greek "Hellas" kills American Dream

2006-09-01T21:09:00.000+08:00

As if the Greek gods have come back to life, the Greek basketball team convincingly defeats Team USA 101-95. There is no doubt that USA has the better talent, but basktball once again proves to be a team game, and individually you couldn't be all dominating. Pondering on that thought -- Nations in convergence could halt the chaos-driven dominance of the world's acting police enforcer.

I just love Basketball.

Titilating

2006-09-01T15:35:00.000+08:00

This MTV makes my day. I would've loved to have it as my ringtone, kaya lang ang gay ng dating for me, no offense to our brothers and sisters. Baka ma-brandishan ako na ISAGANI CRUZifier.. hehehe...

Whoo! Dang! This MTV is H-O-T..

Forward

2006-09-01T11:39:00.000+08:00

No more excuses. Just Blog.

We have been experiencing a myriad of events in our country that seem to be all too common experience. And thinking it is common, it is almost instinctively negligible. This prevalent spirit of social apathy is a curse that has struck one-to-many of us, it has emerged as a pandemic that we pass-on to a another becoming a social norm.

Now, we live our everyday lives letting pass all the headlines after we read or watch them. Say, "what can we do anyway", "we are all too tired of these things happening all over again", and "no matter what we do, they will never change. This stigma has afflicted our nation as the dominant social norm. This is evident in the hordes of our countrymen, our neighbors, our friends and even our parents deciding to work in another country or optioning to migrate.

Our Government contributes alot to the conditioning of this mindset. Corruption remains evident and uncurbed. Political bickerings and manueverings are at its peak due to GMA's doubtful mandate. And all of these directly affects the highly inadequate social service that our government provides. The government is focused on improving the economy and conquering the budget deficit, although this is good to see in numbers and figures, the means are highly questionable. But since I'm not an economist I wouldn;t delve into the issue, i suggest you read the recent ADB report as well as the World Bank on how to improve social services and human development.

Compounding all these and our other social maladies, we have perverted democracy. In the forefront of this is again the current administration's struggle of legitimacy. They have enforced, twisted, circumnavigated everything to their favor. Now we have much of an authoritarian government full of self-serving public officials (notably former generals) and a forceful Armed Forces.

Staying in the status quo of apathy and negligence of our social and democratic responsibilities we are headed for an institutionalized self-serving Parliamentary. Ideed like what we have now, but worse, our hope of direct participation of electing the President and the valuable check and balance which our current system provides would be debilitated.

Now we still have hope of a more active participation in the democratic process, not that I'm against of a Parliamentary systemm, but now is not the time. Now is the time to improve our Democracy, to enhance, to REVIVE. The way forward is not to jump to a parliamentary but look at we have now and deal with it. For GMA to shed light on her mandate. For the people to demand their right to know the truth. We couldn't move forward lest we live the stigma haunting us today.

My Favorite Housmate

2005-11-24T17:35:00.000+08:00

Among all the housemates there is one that stands out, my favorite for many reasons. His attitude, his character, the way he acts to others, the way he communicates and the love he gives. Guessed? He's my dog, Tobee.

If you were expecting a Pinoy Big Brother story, sorry to disappoint you. Tobee have he been a part of that circus, could've have been a contender for the top-prize, if not only for his barks and too much hair, i'm not even including the salivating.

He is such a dog wonder, a charm, a unique dog, he knows how to be plain sweet. Not just to me, but also to other people. As a matter of fact, he's the bestfriend of our neighbor's sibling kids. He runs and tags along with them as if they're all just kids.

With me, tobee, is at constant guard, seldom leaves my side, and is alert to my call, he is my most loyal dog ever. He knows when to run after animals and people, when I ask him to do so, and although knows only one command, he does it obediently, which is to sit.

But he doesn't come with a few glitches, he is a slave to food, and is a cry baby, when I leave the house. He also does carzy things when no ones looking, like chew on all of my shoes' aglets and go up the dinning table. And also sometimes when he is set loose outside, he returns stinkign like cat-poop.

But with all these, tobee remains to be the sweet dog i love soo much. He cries like a baby when I get home, as if I;ve been away for years. He knows my gestures and is sensitive to me. He is more than just a "man's bestfriend" to me, but more of my jolly and coolest housemate.

BEAT THAT! Arf-arf!

Losing and Bickerings

2005-11-23T20:50:00.000+08:00

ooh-la-la! Losing two games in a row and having a 0-2 standing in a 5 game tournament is not really bad at all. But what makes it bad is the bickering losing brings, you lose when the other team plays better, period.

I hate nut-crackers, stupid, insolent people who are too irrational and speaks alot. GRrr. Basketball is a team game, play as a team, lose as a team. Losing makes you better, and hungrier to win.

Next time I wish and hope with optimism that we would win, that would be saturday, and that i don't foul out, since I again did yesterday.

My love for ball has given me soo much pains, but love has it's reasons.. so I keep on balling. Game on!

My Ballz

2005-11-22T12:18:00.000+08:00

"Ballz, Ballz..", says Eminem in his rap, "My Ballz". Well, my ballz too! I'm, soo into basketball this days. Our baranggay basketball league has just started and my team which I am sort of the manager and team captain at the same time is a new entry. I ended calling LBC my team, for Lope Basketball Circle, since our street is named Lope K. Santos, after the great national writer. It also has another name, Mountain Lions since our street is a hill-like, so I guess it fits.

We had our first game last thursday, and after a good start, we lost by 12 points, too bad, but none-the-less a good learning experience for my team. The coach obviously need some help, so I have made adjustments myself.

Today we play another game, against a team that haven't lost in two games. I am optimitic that we could beat them. I will now do the coaching for the early part of the game, to make sure there is a play being followed, to have an organized team game. I bet my two cents we win!

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BTW in our first game I played like a crazy-bozo. I fouled out, and the last, i was called for a deliberate foul. It should'nt have been my fault though, he wanted to drive to the hoop and I gave him a nice defense, too bad I got his body too, and he came crashing to the floor. I hope later I wouldn't get a deliberate foul, fouling out is fine with me. :-)

8 Days

2005-11-22T12:06:00.000+08:00

Perhaps this has been the longest I haven't written in my blog ever. I have been very busy lately, doing alot of crazy, serious, important and nonsense tasks which I seem to actually enjoy.

Eight days that I haven't written, and my fingers ache to type, just breezing through my dust-laden keyboards while listening to new mp3s, nonstop-downloadiing, non-stop listening, keep on typing, going and going.

In the eight days, I have been enjoying ang reflecting, there's indeed more to life, than just to live it. More than to party, there is a purpose aftter enjoying, more than staring at the blank wall and waiting for the sky to shift from day to night, a time well spent on pmdering what to be done next.

Life spent on a continuous cycle of everyday ritual is a bore, a new idea must be invested upon, an idea to change your life and to change others, the idea to enjoy time, to balance your life and to be of purpose.

So how have I lived my eight days? On the pondering perhaps, so next task should be much of the working on all that I've pondered upon. And so I say, "Let's make it happen!".

What's New, What's Up

2005-11-15T09:31:00.000+08:00

After wasting several posts from the glitch in posting I experience with my OPERA browser, now I'm using the same old Explorer to post.

Alot has happened to me lately, a sweet heart, basketball frenzy, family errands, van scraped while parking and alot more fun-fun-fun!

But above everything, it puts me in a retrospecting mode, where am I now? Enjoying and living life, being loved, loving, sharing and also experiencing everything in between and extremes. I guess perfectly normal still.

But happens to all my other posts, where do I put them, still they stay, I said it, i am it, they remain, life is full of surprises, you'll never know. The dream and the reality, coming to terms, meeting the truth, feeling the real, life it is.

Elle est La Musique

2005-11-08T11:24:00.000+08:00

My life and music, they groove, spirit let loose, window to my soul. The tune and its beat, in rythm with my mind, in vibrance with my soul, pulsating with my body. I live the music; in every beat; in every note; in everything the music is, I am.

MICKEY depicting ROXY

Smileys all Over

2005-11-03T17:46:00.000+08:00

Great! Yes, my life has been great, I'm full of smileys now. More than the usual, I get an unlimited supply and its natural high. It's really unique, and it's pretty amazing. How "it" could go along so well, defying time and breaking the norms. It's like magic. Now I get to become like a knight with "my lady".

Introduction

2005-10-30T22:52:00.000+08:00

Dear Grandcildren, Great-Grandchildre and Grandchildren by marriage.

Some of you have asked me to tell you about my folks and how we used to live. Now that I am sure I won't have too many more years on this earth I had better get busy.

I'll try to give you a bird's-eye view of my life as I have lived it. I have joined a group of senior citizens or older people --- whatever you wish to call us. We are interested in seeing what we can remember of the days gone by. If it sounds silly and rambling, so be it. I shall write these memories as they come to me. Many of these things have been forgotten for years; so here are the god and the bad days of my life. Some of you will perhaps laugh and toss this aside, some of you will read it through the end.

Just remember --- nothing is ever so bad it could't be worse. Most of my troubles have been my own fault. If one has faith, health, and the will to try, most problems can be solved. I almost let pride be the death of me. Too much is almost as bas as not enough. Anyway, I can't think of anyone I would change places with if I could.

In looking over my years, I think I have had a very rewarding life and hope you all may be as content and happy as I am in my twighlight years. May your sunny days far outnumber the dark days of our lives. My wonderful family has been such a blessing to me; I love you very much. When I have left you, please remeber how proud of all of you I am. Try to think of me in a great garden with beautiful flowers with no weeds to pull. Or maybe I can get as a job as someone's guardian angel. If so, may I do as well as mine has done protecting me.

We have had some wonderful times together. I treasure the memories so much. All the kind and thoughtful things you have all done. I feel that I am a very rich person indeed.

Never forget to take your troubles to a higher power than any on earth. It will pay off. I know.

Love,
Grandma Jessie Lee

Remember these lines:
For when the one Great Scorer comes to write against your name, He will write not what you won or lost, but how you played the game.

Don't be influenced by what they call the Beautiful People. They are on a toboggan headed for a big crash.

(An excerpt from a page of in a book my chere Roxy-cheezums tore off)

On "Les Miserables"

2005-10-25T22:35:00.000+08:00

It's only now that I've seen this musical, and indeed it's a-mazing. Furthermore a friend of mine is soo deeply into it, made me remember and made me interested much more. My friend told me, to read the book is much better, and when I checked, the book (unabridged) is 1,43X pages.. whew.. that should be an effort, but I'm willing to undertake for the sake of VICTOR HUGO, FREMCH and FRANCE, my friend and for my personal satisfaction.

TEXT-TWIST

2005-10-23T00:45:00.000+08:00

I CAN RACE

took me a while to make.. fun when you are really into it..

now un-scramble then voilà!

Livin' La Vida Loca

2005-10-22T21:59:00.000+08:00

To all those who remember, I sang and danced this for a school project way back in 3rd year High School, I used to regret and shy away when people remember that moment.

But now, I fondly reminisce that I took the risk and got the premium. Lif is a risk, take it, and Live it! It's crazy, and so am I.

Livin' a Crazy Life.

Keep On Hoping

2005-10-18T15:07:00.000+08:00

Do you know what it’s like to wonder?
Do you know what it’s like to be alone in love
With the one you adore?
Do you know what it’s like to hold her?
Do you know what it’s like to feel the way I do?
Well if she only knew

I’m gonna keep on hoping
She catches my smile
And I’m gonna keep on hoping
That she likes my style
And I’m gonna keep on hoping
That one day she’ll be mine

Did you ever wish you could get away?

And do you know what it’s like to want her?
And to breathe her name
In every song you sing?
She is in everything

I’m gonna keep on hoping
That she catches my smile
And I’m gonna keep on hoping
That she likes my style
And I’m gonna keep on hoping
That one day she’ll be mine

Did you ever wish you could get away,
Even for a day,
Where they don’t know your name?

Did I ever think I could find someone
Who would be the one to love?

Do you know what it’s like to wonder?
Yes I know what it’s like to feel the way you do
And this one’s for you

I’m gonna keep on hoping
That she catches your smile
And I’m gonna keep on hoping
That she likes your style
And I’m gonna keep on hoping
One day you’ll find love

That’s why I’m gonna keep on kissing
Her in my dreams
And I’m gonna keep on
Waiting for those yellows to change to greens
And I’m gonna keep on
Hoping one day she’ll be mine

I’m gonna keep on hoping.

Title: Keep On Hoping
Artist: Raul Midon
Album: State Of Mind
Year: 2005

This song makes me smile and remember and believe, and as the song say, "keep on hoping".

My Life-saver

2005-10-16T08:31:00.000+08:00

She's back, Tin-Car, our w123 (prolly '79) Mercedes, which we got many a years ago, as a second-hand car. Me and my brother was surprised that we actually have a "new" car then, a very old car. And at first we were dismayed our father bought it. Anyway the reason he bought it because he always dreamed to have a Mercedes, "kahit yung luma". And so we have it.

Years have passed and it soent most of it's time in repairs, to try to calculate, since we had it, let's say 4 years now, it's been in the repair shop for more than 2 1/2 years, for many reasons, including two BIG vehicle-hits. The first by a 6x6 loaded softdrinks delivery truck in the rear, the second, an right-sight bender smack in Edsa, whilst waiting to turn, by a rampaging fully-loaded bus.

The first accident my brother was the passenger, he said he actually didn;t realize they were hit. Tough car (T.C. as I call the MB). Then the second, I ws the one driving. While I was waiting for my chance to turn to Edsa, corner Corinthians, beside the Bonifacio statue. On a stop, and in position, waiting for the incoming to slow down, we were hit by the fast-igonorant bus, who never even braked, and he was speeding at approximately 60+-80+. No skid marks, means, no brake attemp, no swerve in his position, means he didn't even bother to miss.

I was shocked, but despite in awe, and after checking on my passenger,I managed to open my door and windows, uttering, "Ano, papatayin nyo ba kame?". The crash, paralled my cars position with the bus, when initially we we're around 80 degrees different in position. I remeber vividly, the crash made the rear of the MB jump to parallel the bus, and my head hit the side window as I stared at the in-coming bus, I never blinked, knowing I would hurt more if I do, and I was probably frozen in my position.

I was expecting a wreck. And i was furious with shock and fear; shock because of the sudden impact, fear because the car is a wreck and my father will surely get mad, I then almost forgot I almost died.

But only the front right bender that was damaged, and the hood very slight lifted on the side, but still the Mercedes, could run. I was surprised that it was not a wreck, i was almost expecting shards of broken glasss and bloodied face or broken limb. But lo and behold, i was intact, and no glass or window was damaged.

I was in trauma for a year, I didn't drive, and when I did, I was jittery and paranoid. I realized how lucky I was to survive it with nothing broken, only back pains and an aching jaw that hit the side-window.

I told myself, I will avoid driving near a bus, avoid the bus and big trucks, and will avoid driving the van, which actually is the one I drive, it just so happened that it was color-coding. God-thanks, for everything has it's reason.

Now I asked for the car from my mom and dad, and it's mine to take care. I clean and take care of it like a baby. I buy things for it to make it better. I love it, I love her! She saved my life and I am forever thankful. She's for keeps, my T.C..

The Two-Bestfriends in the World

2005-10-16T08:01:00.000+08:00

"To enjoy life, you must share it with someone". Having friends is good, having good friends is better, having best friends is great! And I actually do have numerous friends, many are good, and I count a few as the best. Among the best is a pair, bestfriends, Oliver and Ej.

They have been my friends dating back to San Beda Grade School, then became my close buddies in High School. Since Freshman year, we have been always together. In class, orgs, in the after-class library stay, and after-library-basketball until we all became part of the Student Council in our 4th year. BTW we were classmates for 3 years in High School, with the 3rd yr. being the only exception.

Our friendship I could say is time-proven, life-proven, and is family-like. Almost 5 years now since High School, and we've separated schools and weekday habits and companions, but still we end up always together. We have been having a constant Saturday-get-together. Now it includes a Friday-Night late basketball, and we are now in a basketball team, which we actually preside. Saturdays' is our gimik-day, an NBA LIVE tournament, a much enjoyed leisure we've been doing since High School, I remeber it was NBA LIVE '98, and now we're into NBA LIVE 2006. And still we enjoy playing it with intesity and much fervor, perhaps even more.

This two people, have become like brother's to me. I know for sure I could count on them no matter what, and yet I also know that they wouldn't not tolerate my insanities and be a good friend to reprimand me with my actions. Our friendship is not just to be likened to a rock, but rather to an "adamantium-tough friendship-bundled with sincerity". It wouldn't suffice to describe the amazing realtionship that we have, but to try to put in into words, we have become a "band of brothers".

To me, friendship like this surpass everyhting, it out-lives (love) relationships, it transcends time and space. It is a lifetime friendship, and perhaps could be likened to "'til death do we part". But in death I believe a "continuation", therefore it would be forever.

These guys are the best.

Post-Its

2005-10-13T10:30:00.000+08:00

I was awfully busy the past few days, some stress, some anxieties, quoting my friend gino's word, minsan "pumitik" narin. Kapagod gumawa ng mga bagay2x na lahat gusto mong gawin, parang si Boom. Siiguro ang lamang mo na lang para di ka "pumitik" ay mag-enjoy ka sa mga ginagawa mo. Kasi kung hinde, kung panay "burat", eh "pipitik" ka talaga..

Buti na lang masaya.

Masaya mag-aral. Masaya mag-basa. Ma-masyal kahit walang pera. Tumawa sa mga mali. Mag-drive kasama ang radio. Mag-isip ng kung anu-ano tungkol sa kung anu-ano rin. Masaya. Di ako baliw, masaya lang. nyehe.

******

Sa Jollibee, kasama si Pinoy-French Idol, napag-usapan namin ang mga bagay ng kakulitan, lumobot sa paksang nagaganap na trapik sa intrsection na aming tanaw, sa pulitika, sa pranses, sa "trip sa buhay" at kay Jollibee siyempre.

Aliw, masaya gawin, kaka-iba talaga si P-F.Idol. Kamukha pa niya si Lilo at si Dora. Sabagay kaibigan niya kamukha si Stitch.

******

Sa munisipyo, panay pulitika ang usap, panay biruan, panay pangarap, panay balak, sukatan, tantsahan, ratsadahan, tirahan. Masaya, marami akong natutu-tunan. Kasama ko pa ang dalawa kong kaibigan na mga tapat at mabuti.

******

Sa telepono kausap si "Magneto". Ang kaibigan kong na pagod at stressed. Di siya pangkaraniwang nilalang. Magaling, matalino, masipag, mabait (na maloko) at "tapat" (2 meanings). Palagay ko taga-ibang planeta siya, kasi sa Earth kulang ang 24 oras sa buhay niya, dapat siguro at least Jupiter siya, para mahaba-haba ang oras na gugu-gulin sa mga bagay na nais niyang gawin. Kasi naman "Magneto" ka lang, di ka si multiple-man, pwede ka sanang flash, kaya lang ang dami talaga ng gusto mo gawin boom, BURN-OUT ka talaga. I swear I'm sure bina-balbas ka na naman. :)

*****

Ang buhay ko, masaya, maayos, may patutunguhan, mabagal nga lang, pero may mararating. My time is my own pacing. Ngayon lahat ng giangawa ko, gusto ko. Ang di ko gusto, di ko ginagawa, o kaya a-a-lamin ko muna kung bakit ko ba dapat gawin. Basta NO to blind obedience, sayang ang kukote, kung panay bangka-ro-te.

Sa isip na nag-iisip, walang sayang na pag-iisip. Ang sayang ay di ma-isip kung na-isip at di-maisip kung umisip. Ang isip na di-umisip ay sayang na isip, gawing parang isaw, meron ka pang "sabaw".

*****

Next up Paralleliisms, comic-book counter-parts! hurrah! sana magawa ko na!

A-mazing

2005-10-11T05:18:00.000+08:00

This is short because I am just about to sleep. A-mazing day, is not ordianry, is exra special, is very different. A very long day, without regrets nor a sad thought not even feeling wasting time, none at all.

Yesterday, at around 1:51 a.m. I met an a-mazing person. A personality's progeny. She is a personality herself in her own unique way. One word for the chance knowing her, and her as a person, A-mazing.

The previous day was my, "pinoy-french idol's" birthday. To me, it was simple yer fun, and happy, and content. And enough. And A-mazing too.

After there, on my way home (from Makati). I got lost. Enetering a one-way street, I was stopped by traffic enforcers. After much talk, I gave them my father's calling card, after apologizing and explaining in all honesty, I got lost, and I couldn't find my way. The reason I stopped after they called my attention despit the clear fact that I could just leave them behind, since they were in the other corner of the street when they called me, was I really was lost, and I had to ask for the way.
Anyway, honesty, I used and it proved to be another A-mazing.

Getting home, I parked the vanette I used. Then to my surprise and heartfelt condolences and prayers, our councilor "ABE" King, who passed away last thursday, was having his wake held in our Municipal Hall. So I pay my respects to a good civil servant whom I respect. Before entering the "Sangguniang Bayan", lo and behold my long un-seen friends whom we talked about seeing eacht other on our councilor's wake were there. Co-incidence, is not a matter of accident, or a chance, it has a purpose, even in small means and it is A-mazing.

Life is A-mazing. The purpose, the meaning. And I said this blog would be short, and for me it turned out to be A-mazing.

A Simple Life (of my Niece)

2005-10-09T07:46:00.000+08:00

"French Fries at Kanin", was her reply. I was surprised in disbelief. My 5 year-old niece who together with my cousin (her mom's sister) I brought along to Greenhills-Promenade for a movie (her first ever) as well as to eat. She asked for Jollibee, despite my cousin's insistence on buying at Mcdo instead. So Joliibee we were.

In Jollibee, I carried her up to order, thinking that she would order another "more common" food combination. But again, to the lady taking order's face, she said, "french fries at kanin". I would have loved to laugh, but I could only manage a smirk of a smile, and felt a heart's touching.

My first conceived thought though, was, this girl is cheap to bring along. BTW she only wanted the plain fries, not the new french fries with beef nor the one with cheese, and excuse me, but no ketchups or any condiments too.

Amazing. A plain request. An innocent girl, the wonderful naiveness of a child.

How I wish I could be the same. That everyone wouldn't outgrow their childlike exuberance. And the world would simply be happy and content.

(I wish to write more about her, but I want everyone to capture the single-most important thought from my refreshing date with my favorite (5 yr-old) niece.)

"Jack of Hearts; Queen of Queens"

2005-10-08T12:53:00.000+08:00

Let me play my cards right this time. No more bluffs, no more gambles, at the right moment, I'd lay my everyhting on the table, and then I'll look in your eyes.

I keep just one special card, that "Jack of Hearts". My special card, my true heart. It's not an ACE, but in it's honesty and precison timing=of-play, it may bring the wonders I foresee.

My "Jack of Hearts" to be faced with the Queen of Queens. Tough odds, but I have a tough heart. Queen of Queens, I will not challenge you yet. I'd let the Kings pass by to their content. I'll wait for that moment, when I get the big push, the big help, the great back-up. I know it will come, I have faith, I believe in destiny.

No, don't get me wrong, I'm not afraid, and definitely not playing waiting game. I just want to be sure I'd make a move at the right moment. Precison would be the "Jack of Hearts" greatest and most critical move.

Once before I gambled, then second time I bluffed, now I don't want any of those anymore. This time I will make sure that there will be no more cards at hand. And it will be just me, baring my all that I have to give.

Now, I am making myself deserve you. I have a personal pledge. In due time, I will be man enough to deserve you, man enough to be with you, man enough to deserve your love; the "Queen of Queens".

A Friend's Reply

2005-10-06T21:20:00.000+08:00

(This is my Friend's reply to my earlier blog, "I think I'm in Love", written 9/24/2005. I am posting it, un-edited, to share it to all, and to show my gratitude for a well-thought message, actually very very well-thought.)

I believe that there is someone out there God has
prepared for each of us, His children, and that
person is the perfect one for us. Long before a
person is born, God has already planned it
all.That's how great He is!

But then most of the time, people push for what
they want--for what makes them happy, even
temporarily.
I've seen too many people settle for lower than
they are worthy of. They lower their standards for
something below par--hoping at the same time that
they will be, and will remain, happy. It saddens me.

But I have seen, too, those who waited...and God's
plan was the best that has ever happened in their
lives!They are wonderfully happy now, happy with
their one true love...and happy that they made
that choice.

I have done my share of mistakes, too, and that
wasn't even long ago. I bargained with Him. I
almost settled for less, too. It didn't take me
that much time to realize that it was futile,and
that it wasn't what He we wanted for me. That's
how much He loves me, even if I was
unworthy.That's the beauty of His Grace.

I choose not to join the common horde.That is my
personal crusade. God's and mine.

Love isn't what they teach you in the movies or
what you read in books. In the end, Love is that
thing that comes in God's time, not yours. He will
let you have your way, but he'll always want the
best for you.

We do not "think" that we love someone. it's more
than that. LOVE IS A CHOICE, that's why waiting is
important. Waiting for HIS PERFECT TIME

p.s.
"vicarious" is among my favorite words.

Fixated

2005-10-06T20:37:00.000+08:00

I turned, stumbled, then crawled, still the same. I slept, ate, and studied, nothing's changed. I looked far and wide, did alot of things, still she remains. Nothing's changing about her, or should I say with my "vicarious love".

IT only gets stronger, it only becomes more real, it over-grows my mind, it insists on reality, it aims for more, it seeks for her.

She is there, and I am not near, and still I maintain my distance; and her not knowiing I am near. For now, I'm content knowing that you are doing fine. I'd just be around. Making myself a better person. Wishing the stars and my life's luck that I may have a chance with you.

If the love (or is it deep admiration) that I feel is genuine, then I'd continue to think about you first. That in all the actions that I will do, would be for you. You may never be mine, I may never have the chance. And if ever I don't, I'd still be proud to say I love(d) you in the distant.

But I am still hoping, against all possible odds, that it wouldn't just be vicariously.

I am "Mama's Boy"

2005-10-04T20:47:00.000+08:00

I always thought that in our family of three legitimate "panganays", I am the fourth, the "bunsong-panganay". Three "panganays" since my mom and dad are both the eldest in their family, and my brother is technically the eldest. Meanwhile, all the while I think I'm the real "panganay" although I am the younger one.

This perception of being the elder is because I act as the caretaker of the house, the man in authority, the person who takes charge of the family, when my dad and/or mom are away. My brother is the introvert type and is my mom's big baby.

Me (or I), on the other hand, although many say I got the looks of my mom, have my father's constant consent, to quote him, "diskarte mo". So in my life I decide waht to do, "palyado" man, my fault, I learn, I earn. I never felt that I was and could be "mama's boy".

And then it happened --as if never before-- I felt I am mama's boy. Earlier my mom asked me to go with her to use her credit card, first time, since she hasn't used it for two years. I obliged of course, and told her, "let's go to Rustan's". Anyway to cut it short, she bought me everyhting I wanted. Including my first LEVI'S (501) jeans. I felt it was my birthday, but my birthday is the 29th of december. And as if a bonus or another jackpot I should say, my mom finally knew that me and Patti have broken up. And she (my mom) was very supporive and good to me. And told me it was ok, she knows I am strong. So I felt, wow, this is better than all my birthdays combined.

So I told mom about "vicarious" (the vicarious story I earlier wrote), but of course didn't tell the identity of "vicarious". She felt happy for me. And I know that she feels proud of me. That she has a good son (aside from my very good baby big brother).

This day of my life will be forever special. I realized, I am the real "bunsoy" and I am my "Mama's Boy"

(www.mickeycelles.blogspot.com)

Happiness is Cheap

2005-10-04T10:07:00.000+08:00

With friends, you can actually have great fun without spending much. And with great friends a spur of the moment time together, could actually be quality time. Furthermore killing time is a happy time if you have a good friend with you, despite not spending.

Yesterday, I was with Boom, in TAFT, then we went to Makati, eventually to the AYALA-malls. It was really fun despite spending only P20 bucks, and boom getting free coffee, he spent P40 for the parking. And we were there for four (4) hours. Book-spotting and shirt-finding as well as day dreaming.

Money makes the world go 'round, so they say, but I say friends shape the world round, and if there are no friends the world wouldn't be round and it would be hard to turn 'round 'n round! hahahaha!

I therefore have to say, that friends are no.1. Unlike money they don't come and go. Although they appreciate and depreciate, they are more than just assets. Maybe there will be times when they become liabilities or go bankrupt, but they will never go out-of-circulation. Old friends like antiques are tested and true, they are not just great displays but life's treasures.

You are not a Criminal; Worse

2005-10-01T13:43:00.000+08:00

Mr. Manny Salgado, let me just shoot my "two cents" or should I say "cheapshot". Yes, you are not a criminal, far worse. You have no reason to commit the worst mistake in your entire life.

I am a La Salle fam, the stingy defense, the heart, the class, the poise under pressure. But you, you ruined it all, that fateful day, I was in awe. I never thought that an alumnus of La Salle and an assistant team manager could commit such a stupid act. It's way below a La Sallians' character.

Now you say you are not a criminal, of course not! You are not convicted, and you will never formally be. But in the eyes of the many STUDENTS and ALUMNI of all the participating schools of the UAAP, as well as the avid fans of UAAP and of allthe FILIPINO people who saw what you did, you are worse!

You are an assistant manager. You are a La Sallian. You are a father. WHY DID YOU RUN AFTER YOU'VE COMMITED your "act"? Because... I ,myself could'nt comprehend, I dare not try to explain the reason for RUNNING AWAY.

You shouldn't have tried to redeem yourself, explaining that you apologize yet argue next that it is too much of a punishment. It's another wrong "act" to do.

Indeed you are not a criminal, criminals, may still watch the game, unfortunatley for you and fortunately for the sake of the PREMIERE amateur basketball tournament's sake, you are not allowed to watch live anymore. You are a threat, you need ANGER MANAGEMENT class.

I dare you to make a better apology, and in humilty, stoop down, ego-less and ADMIT, that it was all my fault: "I AM SORRY"

(note this is not supposed to be like GMA's, "I am Sorry")

MCDO-Quarter-Pounder-NO-MORE

2005-09-30T19:33:00.000+08:00

After several days of craving for the very tasty and uniquely satisfying quarter-pounder burger of MCDO, I earlier ate at Greenhills Mcdonalds. To finally satiate my craving as well as my hunger.

Focused on finally savoring the taste that I missed, I found myself in Mcdo, in-line, looking at the price, so It's P109 now for a quarter-pounder meal, I had a hard time, deciding if I would go big time fries to save a few coins, but then I still went double big time. And added a Taro Pie, plus asked for more ketchups and a gravy.

It was almost a almost a standard order, and I got what I expected, and so I finally found a seat with a nice view. I sat, I began to unveil my "QP" as in short for quarter-pounder. To my dismay, there were this tiny bubbly globs of meat at the sides of the quarter-pounder. I wondered, what the heck are these??? Is this QP cooked well? I may get "whatchamacall-it-disease??" and die! But what the heck, i fiddled the globs, and decided, they seem to be part of the QP, might as well eat the QP and don't mind these globs.

And so I began to eat my QP. To my dismay, it was not as good as before, maybe I expected the juicy and tasty too much.. And just got the tender and over-priced as well as a flattened quarter-pounder (as if some fat person sat on it in the bus). I was very dismayed, almost frustrated, but I still ate it, alternating with my go-large-fries with ketchup or gravy.

I wasn't really happy with my QP. So i opened my Taro Pie, to my surprise, it looked like a barbecued Taro Pie, with the other end as if squished, with burnt taro exposed. Then I felt sad.. WTF, I paid P147 pesos for a qaulity meal, and I get below-quality servings. I thought I'd have a word with the manager, but then I'm not in the mood for arguments. It's their loss anyway. For that would be the last time I would ever-buy my QP. Forever, unless it's free I won;t take it.

Goodbye QP, it was great when you were the yummy-type that I cherised to eat.

Christopher George Zulueta (UA and P)

2005-09-29T12:55:00.000+08:00

(This is my bestfriend's write-up which he asked me to make, I liked it soo much, I'm sharing it to all)

The complex nature of Chris is understood in his simplicity. He is a man of simple goals and aspirations. He doesn’t look far and he is not bold but rather ensures of attainability.

His unique identity is in his simplistic attitude, despite some actions of his that prove otherwise.

Through the years, he has blossomed to be a wonderful obedient son to his beloved mother and family. As a lover he is very careful, as a brother; he is most giving, as a driver; he could almost qualify the F1.

Christopher tries to be ubiquitous. He wants to squeeze everything in his schedule and sometimes squeezes too much. His time perception may be his weakness, but he compensates with intensity and focus.

He is a great friend, period.

Chris is a typical “pinoy”, but he is extraordinaire. In simplicity he strives to be a successful person.

Pinoy BIG Blunder

2005-09-28T22:26:00.000+08:00

Everyday, just as we eat dinner, everyone in our household are glued to their seats, and their eyes fixated on the telivision, watching the "Pinoy Big Borther".Meanwhile I painfully have no other choice but to watch as I digest my food. And truly it pains me. Pain, in the head, well actually more of an insult.

The title could be alternatively chnaged to "Pinoy BIG Blunder", perfectly synonymous with the original. The claiming to be, "the real-reality show" is distressing. To me, the only reason it clicks, is because it delves on THREE BASIC HUMAN nature, the first, wanting to be like a god. Second on human failure, and third is the survival-instinct somthing like stepping-up to the occasion. Let me just make it clear, that yes, I do watch TV, and I enjoy it too, but nowadays, when time is valuable, a good find is hard to find.

The first is pretty simple, Big Brother is God in their world. Big brother, is the boss of their EDEN. What he says is the rule, and those who don't follow get their punishment, and those who do well get more blessings, or should I say grace or "grasya".

Secondly, on human failure, the directors and the shows architects over-expose the contestants (er.. housemates?) weaknesses. For life's basic vices and temptations, like smoking, sex, lust, food, freedom, greed etc. To me it's a boring plot. The tension is almost make-believe (or is it indeed).

Third, on the survival-instict and bringing home the bacon. So despite of the given circumtances, the "err-housmates" thrive on pressure, on the idea to be better, to overcome their weaknesses. I have to say this, after all the reality shows I've seen, that the basic thing they will tell everyone after they emerge from the house is, "I have become a better person". And it just sucks to hear that after.

The real-reality show that it claims to be, is no different from the reality of SUGO (ch.7 feat. Richard Gutierrez). It is on script, on cue, with timing, and although difficult to ascertain, rehearsed. The fears are fake, the tension is simple, living on that house should be a breeze if you want to win. Change yourself to fit what the BIG (Bothering) Brother wants, everyhting, and be very pleasant and admirable, and stay cute on TV.

The reality of its reality is it's not real at all. It's almost fake, I can't just say fake for sure. It insults my Filipino pride. I frown to see the new pinoy to be like that, uninhibited, are stupid, they can't even control themselves, despite knowing the place is peppered with cameras-on 24/7. It's a disgust, ABS-CBN continues to bank on stupidity and filipino weakness to stir the ratings game. Therefore it's good to hear they're still recovering from their losses. And my perception will only change if they infuse their shows, with more character, positive influence and Filipino ingenuity. I hate your channel, you make "US" stupid.

Three Specs I Look For (in A LADY)

2005-09-27T15:39:00.000+08:00

This is more of a pun. So, no offense to all the girls.

So here are the three specs, that attracts me, enjoys me, and I love most in a girl/lady.

1.Smart
2.Smart
3.Smart

And to me, it would be a BIG bonus if she could have this X-FACTOR:

X-FACTOR: SMART
Anyway it's just me.

Dolce Vita, so don't be bitter

2005-09-26T21:52:00.000+08:00

Everyday has been a "new" day. A wonderful feeling, new experiences on my way. And so it seems, nothing and no one could rain on my parade. Perhaps because I made my parade rain-proof.

Each day has been a blessing, a means to an end, and a means to a means. Never stuck, always on the go, not stopping, moving forward, accelerating. Live life on the fast lane. But I also drive safely.

Every task is a challenge I enjoy. And again I say, "If you love the work, do it". Some people make their tasks harder, and also you could make a hard task easier. It's all in the mind. Unless you're mindless.

And life indeed is sweet, and here are some experiences:

*****
Today I met the Flinstone's kid, she was uber smart, and she taught me about the german-german sheperd. And she was loaded(brainy and all). I believe it was the flinstones' effect. She speaks the german and she speaks german-seven with flare. And her filipino is the sweetest/

*****
I had a happy moment with my "joli" friend, finally she spoke, and she appreciates me. Good thing! hahaha! or else i wouldn't be her friend.. kidding..

*****
I now know Makati, after the countless times I got lost, and if you doubt: ask another person ASAP. =)

*****
On money, I have none, literally. Everyhthing are on the books, again literally. Fully booked got them all, and it makes me happy, i feel like investing in a bank, and I get books in exchange for money. hahahaha!!! I am now waiting for my interest to grow. heheheh...

*****
On writing, I feel more confident than ever, I think I have improved my style, and they say it's good, I hope so. I want to be writer ever-since as a part-time show-time. hahahah!

*****
On responsibilities, I have alot right now, and despite all, I juggle them with a smile, and yet again I say, It's all in the mind. And a first in my life. Responsible in my responsibilities.

*****
In love, Yes I am in love, soo much, with life and with them all, but especially with her. Vicariously I feel for her. She has transformed to be my inspiration, when I thought I was almost luck-less, I remebered she was one of the few who believed me then. And as I look back, she definitely is the "one" who cares.

And because of that love has taken a new perspective in my life, to love and not expect to be loved. To love as a means for inspiration. Not to fool yourself with love. And to love is to wait for her, to take my long-shot chances. To believe and to hope that despite the long years we haven't met, she remembers me at least. And with that, I'd be more than happy and content.

"Now I Can Answer"

2005-09-25T23:57:00.000+08:00

I pondered much on this, and realized, I should decide. And now I can answer.

I will tell her soon. On the best chance I could have. Let me take my longshot than to remain looking blindly at her from a distance.

One day we'll meet again, and then I would have my chance.

I will tell her. To the one, who got me at hello. I am loving you from afar.

I "THINK" I'm in love

2005-09-24T10:47:00.000+08:00

Sometimes you just do realize it. And this time I have realized it. And this time I won't do wrong about it. This time I will play it safe and easy. Now I will wait and see. I will not pressure, I will not ask, I will not talk (to her) there is a catch, Its because I love her, and I believe its true and maybe if she knows it now she won't love me too.

I guess I'm scared, but maybe I'm not. I just want her to be happy, as it makes me feel happy and proud of her too. I may not see her now, I may not be able to hold her. But deep inside me, she lives.

She is the one, my quintessential lady, the embodiment, the person I admire most because of her attitude. She inspires me the most, although I have never seen her since. I have realized, and I believe, I will come back to you, you who captured me in a moment, I have never forgotten ever-since. You may never know, but i will always be proud to tell, that it's you I love the most, in the most real and pure meaning.

I am vicariously IN LOVE.

I'm on BROADBOAND

2005-09-23T19:08:00.000+08:00

Thanks to my mom and dad! Thanks for giving me broadband access! Now I can internet more! post more! chat more! download more! and enhance my creativity even more! Thanks for believing!

Your son, your work in progress:

LEANDRO "MICKEY" CELLES

One Last Time, One LAST time (Great Inspiration)

2005-09-22T07:22:00.000+08:00

I’m sorry, that we ended. I know you see me as the blame. I’m sorry that we turned out this way; you’d probably still say I am the one to blame. Sorry for the harsh and sarcastic outpouring. Sorry if I made you “think” more than I should have, and made “him” start “thinking”. I should have just turned back and ignored and denied as you have done towards me; but turns out, maybe to your surprise; I am not what you expect me to be.

Longing is the exact feeling that has remained in me. In the forty-three months that we’ve been together, remembering the almost holy love we shared, and the countless sweet moments, I couldn’t just let it go, like “dropping a hot potato”.

The promises we’ve made to each other remains vivid to me, and our love; love which was full of assurance (since for love to be strong it has to be assured, example using the words forever, ikaw lang, tayo lang, “una at huli”) has embedded deep roots in my heart. And of course you seldom see the roots, might as well my real heart. People and their assumptions and fear, is like a curse that is a great weakness.

Before, I would have proudly said, “You complete me”. But now, “You broke me”. Left me, shattered into pieces, without even helping me pick a chunk. You almost left me for dead, if I was not strong, I would probably metaphorically be for a long time. But I decided to be strong (which you could actually do in real-life). And pick up the shattered pieces that you left. I have become a new person; and you leaving; you breaking my heart is my greatest sorrow turned my greatest inspiration.

“You and I will never be”, you said it yourself (maybe not implicitly), you wanted a doctor and someone who never grows old. I wanted the LAW, and the government and I’d probably lose my child-like exuberance. You said lawyers are “sleek” and philanderers and doctors are clean and honest. You said it, I said yes. But did I say not me?

I may not be the greatest person in the world; I may not be the best boyfriend; the best friend; the best son; the best classmate; the best in anything. But I try my best, and my best takes time, and time takes patience, and patience involves faith and faith requires trust or belief. And I hope and does to be great in the little things I could.

And with these all, let me grab this opportune moment, to say I set you free as you and “him” wish to be, no calls, no texts, no gifts, no pics (you have to wait), no more write-ups (I’ll try), no more anything, no more in nothing, nothing in everything: simply NOTHING. Goodbyes are not needed, the next second after you read this, that’s the “WE ARE NOTHING NOW --- WHICH YOU-ASKED FOR PERIOD”.

"Girls are Funny"

2005-09-20T15:15:00.000+08:00

Funny how girls often could not be satisfied despite your efforts to give them what you could. Although we (men) should admit that we have our shortcomings, but still sometimes we try to move heaven and earth and try to part the Red Sea, just to make them happy. But still… just being happy and trying, sometimes even with our best, is not enough.

So my most recent girlfriend (who broke up with me), said long ago, “you loved “xxx” (my first girlfriend) more than you love me”. I was surprised and made me think. Did I? Do I? And just today, my first girlfriend (who I just came to terms with “meaning friends again”) said through text,

“gudmorning micks!  nabasa pla ni mama ung blog mo hehe.. bkt daw wala ako hndi k daw pla seryoso skn dati. Wahaha chaka mahal na mahal mo daw c patti hehe

(In English translation: goodmorning micks! My mom read your blog. Hehe.. She asked, why was I not there. Perhaps you were not serious with me. Wahaha! And you love patti very much. Hehe.)

And this made me think even more. Who did I love more?

I believe I loved them both the same. But since the latter was much longer 43 months, compared to the 16 months with my first, I had more long-term plans and dreams with her. And of course most would admit, “first love/relationship” has the steep learning curve. And is definitely the most idealistic of all (So “LALAKE” better take note of this, ayt!). And if indeed you’re the serious type, which I claim to be , you’d get better with experience. Just like what you become in all the other stuffs you learn the hard way. Hah!

So I say “girls are funny”, and I quote Brad Pitt, “I love girls” (from Oprah interview). I say that even though they are not the “man’s best friend”, they are a man’s best companion. Girls’ will forever be girls, and despite how mean, undesirable, unpredictable, difficult and bitchy they become at times, they will always have a special place in me, a big space for two (the other one is me, don’t think dirty).

[So this answers my first girlfriend’s request and addresses my “recent’s” question]

Abrupt End: In Silence

2005-09-20T00:36:00.000+08:00

And so it is.. It's done and all over. The perceived battle of former and current is kaput. I'm not entirely sure what happened. But I leave it to my assupmtions. On the general idea that Patti Ramos, with her enchanting love has caused the guy to eclipse and fold.

I think that since they are just starting out, they still have alot of unsettled issues left to time and experience to be fixed. And I beleive that Patti can do that. That she asked the guy to shut up and reminded him of possible complications. I know Patti, and she knows me. But I believe I know her better. And too bad for "LALAKE", he's still knowing her, and is up for a few surprises. Surprises, which I have all surpassed and tried to understand.

I think the guy realized not to talk when your heart is full. Because if you do, you won't get understood. You have to rationalize your thoughts. Think. Use your bigger head. And again, HEAD, not BUT, not head-butt. HEAD.

Again, I wish you both the best, and let me apologize, let me do it first, that you may also realize your mistakes. You love her, I loved her, you can't take that away. Unless you think you're a GOD. And of course, you're definitely NOT!

Patti will love you and teach you all the good manners and ethics that you should follow. And if you don't do as well as she does to you, YOU'RE GOOD AS DEAD.

SILENCE speaks and he just spoke.

Inaway ako ni LALAKE

2005-09-16T20:34:00.000+08:00

Habang nagmamaneho ako na-istorbo ako ng sangka-tutak na sunod-sunod na text. Nasa may White Plains Area ako, malapit sa lugar na muntik ko nang ikamatay, mga isang taon na ang nakakaraan nang mabangga ang sasakyan ko ng ruma-ragasang BUS habang akoy naka-stop. Buti na lang at MB na vintage ang dala ko (W123 chasis) kung VANETTE yun, wala nang Alternative's ALTERNATIVE na BLOG. Bale yung nagtext ang nobyo ng akong naging girlfriend ng apat-na-put-tatlong buwan/ 3 taon at 7 buwan. Si P.S. pinagsasabihan ako o pinapa-alala-hanan ata.. isa sa dalawa o pareho.

Bale ayun, nagulat ako eto yung unang text niya in verbatim:

"mickey celles, c pe* so* to, boyfriend ni patti. sana ok ka na tlga, wla kmi masamang intensyon syo at sana maging maligaya ka rin gsto ko lang malaman mo na..

...aba sabi ko sa sarili ko, mahaba, may mga kasunod.. na-pabasa ako habang nagma-maneho sa ulan.. ang laksa pa naman ng ulan.

eto yung kasunod..

sobra seloso ako, kya napagkasunduan namin ni patti na tanggalin ka sa friendster nya, kasama testi nyo sa isat-isa sinasabi lang namin syo ngayon pra d ka na...

whew.. haba noh.. pero bagama't maulan, at nasa gitna ako ng daan, pinilit ko paring magtx.. kahit alam kong may karugtong pa, kasi tunog ng tunog cellphone ko..

sabi ko:

"Peter, si Mickey Celles to! Naintindihan kita at di ako kokontra, mahalin m na lang siyang mabuti, medyo demanding yan, pro sobrang sweet din. Wag mo rin sanaying magastos. Wag ka mag-alala madali ako kausap, pakisabi naintindihan ko. Ingat kayo palagi, I wish you both the best!"

Ang bait ko di ba?? siyempre, sinapian na naman ako ng kabaitan, pero marami pang text na dumarating.. eto yung kasunod:

"..magtaka. hiniling ko rin syo na wag mo na itetxt, reregaluhan, o kokontakin c patti pra sa kahit ano mang dahilan. sana maintindihan mo kc alam ko seloso ka"

Bigla kong naisip, may problema kaya sila.. Bakit flawed ang argument ng batamg 'to, dinamay pa ang pagiging seloso ko. At least reasonab-le nako nagyon. (say nyo?)

At siyempre may kasunod pa talaga..

"..rin. wala naman akong galit syp pro sobra seloso lang talaga ako.pra syo na rin ito dahil mas madali ang pag-move on pag malinis at buo ang paghihiwalay. wag kang.."

Pumanting ang tenga ko.. At sino ba siya para magsalita ng ganyan saken.. Di naman siya hari, di ko naman siya kilala, sarap @#P!*%.. Napilitan tuloy ako tumabi sa roadside, malapit sa gate ng White Plains turning to EDSA. Makapagtext nag sa lokong toh!

Pero bago ko nagawa iyon ay binasa ko una ang sang-katerbang messages na sumunod..

"mag-alala pra k patti.alam ko kung gano sya ka-special at mahal na mahal ko sya. sa totoo, una at huling girlfriend ko sya.kya nag-iisa syang may-ari ng buo kong..

aba, pati saken nag-drama si 'LAKE, pero share ko lang, hindi talaga si Patti ang nagtext kasi si Patti ay napakagaling sa wikang Pilipino, nabibilob nga akong sa mga akda niya, lalo na sa knayang mga tula.

"..puso at pagmamahal.nandito sya sa tabi ko nagyon sa pagtxt namin syo.sana makahanap ka rin ng kaligayahan, wag ka nang magreply kc tingin ko nasabi mo na lahat"

Nag-init ata ulo ko, medyo imposing siya saken, sa loob-loob ko, "hu u"/ "CNUKA". So what kung magkatabi kayo, ikaw nga lang mgtx saken kuntento nako eh, at ano ang "KALIGAYAHAN" na sinasabi mo? ehem.. maligaya po ako palagi, nalungkot lang ako nang lubos nang ,malaman kong may bago na siya BIGLA. Pero INITINDI ko yon 'TOY. at SINOKA para dikatahan ang pagsasalita ko??? walang dumidikta sa karapatan kong magsalita! SINOKABA!?

meron pa siyang hirit..

"ng pwedeng masabi sa paghihiwalay. wala akong galit syo, pro dahil sobra seloso ko nga,d ko maiwasan masamain at magalit kung d mo tutuparin ang mga hiling ko..

NAKS!!! Was that a threat!? AKO??? SAKEN??? kay MICKEY CELLES??? sangganong-sangg8#$0 ka yata eh. Eh di magalit ka saken, PAKE KO B U! HU NGA BA. LABU U EH. FEELING P U. Gusto mo ba mangako ako sayo? itaas ang kanang kamay at ilapag ang kanan sa Bibliya, at matakot sa apoy ng impyerno sa 'di ko pagtupad? IMBIYERNA!!! SUS'maryosep, you have some issues kid...

at di pa siya tapos dun...

"syo.tanggalin mo na rin nga pla un pic ninyong dalwa sa acct mo, at burahin lahat ng pic/video nya (kung d mo lang binura pa) kc bka may makakita pang iba.iniicip.."

AT SINUKABA talaga para mag-demand saken ng ganyan? magaling ka ba mag-basketbol? sino ka? WAG MO KONG UTUSAN! DAHIL DI KITA FRIEND. HU U nga.. pake mo ba sa mga files ko, burahin ko kaya pictures mo!

at may pahabol pa yan..

"...ko lang ang kapakanan ng baby ko. sana maintindihan mo, at sana mapatunayan mong karapat-dapat kang minahal ni patti.gud luck sa buhay, mickey celles -peter&patti

Eh alam mo ba na tinawag ko rin siyang "baby". wala kang originality. At ano pa ba ang dapat kong patunayan sa kanya??? Are you thinking or are you just "feeling" what you text. Kasi po 'LAKE, kung may taong dapat magpatunay kung karapat-dapat siya ay WALANG IBA KUNGDI IKAW! sino ba ang NA-HULI???? ang NA-UNA??? ang MA-UNA? at ang MA-HULI??? wow, slow. SINABI KO NA PO KC sa unang text ko na madali ako kauspa at ma-i-intindihan ko kaagad.. EH BAKIT ANH HABA!? daig mo pa ang babae, sana si patti na lang ang nagtext maikli o kaya wala talagang text. THANKS sa GOODLUCK! mas kailangan mo yan! pero akin na yun!

ANG KAY JUAN ay KAY JUAN, ang KAY PEDRO??? KAY JUAN ba??? siyempre kay PEDRO din!

ang labo noh!? parang ikaw! ang daldal mo kasi eh. sa susunod pag-may sasabihan kang lalake, maikli lang.. lalo na yung mga madaling kausap. Parang kulang ka sa usap eh. Kung insecure ka, wag mo ko idamay, kung feeling un-secure ka, wag mo ko idamay, kug feeling security ka ni patti, wag mo kong idamay, dahil wala akong ginawang mali!

Kung gusto mo, bumili ka ng box, ilagay mo si Patti sa loob, kunin mo yung cellphone niya at i-flush sa toilet para di na kame magkita at mag-usap ever.

O kaya naman, mag-time travel ka, dun sa panahon na nag-kaka-kilala pa lang kame, tapos sumigit ka na agad, tapos dalhin mo siya sa FUTURE. Eh di wala ka ng problema, kadali-dali ng solusyon pinahirap pa.

May isa pako, bili ka ng memory eraser na helmet, suot mo sa uli ni PATTI, ilagay mo MICKEY CELLES, press mo erase all files related up to the last degree of relativity. EH di solb! ay sus!!! You're so Old School, hijo, hi-tek na tayo now..

Eto lang para matapos nako, kasi parang di ako mapigil, DI KITA KILALA! WAG KA MAGDEMAND NG GANYAN! MATUTO KA MAG-EXPLAIN ng MAAYOS at MAIKLI na parang tunay na LALAKE. ALAM KO GINAGAWA KO! INISIP KO YUN LAHAT! Kung di ako makalimutan ni patti o lagi niya tayong kinukumpara, di ko na problema yun.. SAYO YUN! KASI SABI mo SIYA ang FIRST and LAST GIRLFRIEND MO. So kasama ba dun yung first and only wife??? eh yung sa GITNA ng FIRST and LAST? (clue:"and" siya)

Nga pala eto na yung reply ko, actually sinend ko to bago ko mabasa yug huli kasi nag-init nako..

SABI KO...

Wag mo ko diktahan na parang wala akong alam. Di ako galit, ayoko lang ng pinagmumukang tanga. Kung move-on lang, patapos nako dun. Kaya wag ka na madaldal pa. Ang haba masyado eh. Uulitin ko di ako nagagalit. Alam kong nagmamahalan kayo, kya alam ko gagawin ko. Ok? Wag ka na magreply, atenista ka alam mo na yan, naintindihan mo na yan. Simpleng salita, simpleng paliwanag, tapos. Uulitin ko, gudluck sainyo, and tnx sa pag-inform saken."

Ok ba?? kulit eh.. parang naka-unlimited magtx, eh ma-puputulan nakom nag-d-drive pako sa ulan.

At di pa tapos, mga after 5 minutes, naisip ko, text ko si Patti...

sabi ko..

Yung boyfriend mo masyadong defensive. Uulitin ko lang goodluck sainyo. Sinsero ako. Pangako.

Sarap magtext. ;)

Ladies of my Life: Past, Present and Future (on LOVE)

2005-09-15T20:19:00.000+08:00

I'm figuring out, to put myself in perspective. To find out where do I stand, on the position of love. On loving another person, on finding my better half. Because to me, it is not a game of chance but a matter of destiny.

Love has been kind to me, and I was enchanted to take everything she would give, the most happy-happy moments and the ever-sad learning experiences. I would say that I am ripe, but no one is ever ready for love. When it happens, it's almost as if it is a first time. Each love is unique.

I have loved many times, and each love ear-marks my life. Each love tells a story, from my youth, to where-i-am now. In my life's experiences it has served to be a better recall tool than my age or birthdays, perhaps I was born to love, and loving is all I want to do.

And since love has always been an important shaper and decider in my life, it has taught me how to face life. How I would learn from each petty admirations to serious long-term relationships molded my mind to think and re-think how I think, how I live and how I love.

On the three women/ladies I see in my life, they could be classified as my past, present and future. They are my timelines, on whether I've moved forward or backward. If going to the right direction and moving for the right person.

On my past, she was a beauty and the best lover, she was everything you need in a woman. And she gave her all. She was all I needed. And then our small world became crowded with our big dreams and egos to satisfy. And the love that was seemingly indisputable, was actually a bubble waiting to burst. And so she's gone, away, now, with another man. But I don't hate her, she gave her best and so did I, until best couldn't just satisfy us anymore.

On my present, I say she is one of the fine ladies I've ever met, simple, sweet (super), adorable, beautiful.. enchanting.. She moves and my eyes follow, she speaks and my ears listen with ardor. When she's with me, I feel all the goodness in life, and the good in me prevails. She captivates me like I'm on a spell. But I and her, will never be. And I know that, and I have learned to play along my boundaries, not to cross the lines lest I break God's commandment. She is someone I'm hoping that there would be another one exactly like her, but free to be loved entirely. She was not. But still I like her so much for that, that she would never be mine, and I would continue to adore her, within the border line painted with respect and love of family and faith in God.

On my future, I met them in my past, they were significant people in their own worlds. They are like me, in a way I could say.. strong-willed, unique, different, deviant, and would face the world's toughest challenges alone. I say they are two persons who are one and almost the same in character. I hope that in the future we would meet again, that fate would bridge our way. That likeness may spark further interests. That in the future destiny has set a time for me with ms. future. And I hope that when ms. future and I meet, we will engulf our pasts, springboard the present and build on one future. She is love. A love forever.

On ms. past, present and future; They are my life, they are my love. I live a new day inspired by the love they shared, sharing and will share. I remain optimistic in the goodness that life has to give despite all the cumbersome potholes I met on my way to become a better person, everyday, they are the inspiration to a new day, and to new experiences. I live life, I love, I love life.

(the persons I'm referring as past, present and future have their names appearing on my blog many times already, the one is obvious the other two have been my topics for several blogs already, if you figure them all out, you get a prize from me, say... a movie with free lunch or dinner and another wish that I could provide, I do my words.. ..y'know me)

On Love, Fate and Faith

2005-09-13T09:25:00.000+08:00

Finally.. I'm over her, now that I understood, now that I have cleared the clutters caused by the suddeness.

On LOVE, (this is not orig.) but I firmly believe it needs assurance. The way and the countless times you ever said: "forever", "habang-buhay/panahon", "magpakailanman", "ikaw lang", and of course "till death do "you" part".

Love is jealous, love is binding, love is commiting, love has its reason, but love alone I say is bad in logic, full of fallacies and is basically flawed.

So do you believe in Fate?

FATE will bring "you" and the one meant for you together, like serendipity (btw the movie "Serendipity" is great for dating and lovers,10 stars). No matter what, I believe that person will come, sometimes it may appear that you've found that person, but in the end not, just LIKE me. But you should try, or else you would never find out at all.. (which is worse)

So you should have FAITH, love attracts you, and works like those positives and negatives in chemistry, Fate, like an act of GOD is almost all pre-determined, unless you don't take your chances. FAITH will glue you together like mightybond spills in your hands while you hold each other.. FAITH despite the absence of mighty bond and the distance makes your love remain strong. FAITH makes you believe, as the BLUE ones say, WE BELIEVE.

You may have love, but it won't last, only FATE meanwhile may last but you have to be sure, but with FAITH it keeps you holding on.. despite the odds, despite the overwhelming odds...

FAITH, she is a beauty that has taken the symbol for my love-lost, and FATE let go, as it wasn't for me. FAITH she is the woman who holds on despite the ODDS stacked up higher than her and more than she could've imagined. FAITH, she makes me believe in myself, that I will find my true LOVE, and that I will meet my FATE.

Let me alter a line from Jerry Magwire. "Faith, You.. complete me." You made me whole, and made me a person of confidence once again. Everyone has their own FAITH, it's just a matter of finding your own, and knowing her. I've found her, then I found myself.

PAGBATI para kay PATTI RAMOS para sa MALIGAYANG KAARAWAN!

2005-09-08T16:50:00.000+08:00

Ma-una na ang na-huli.. Na-huli na ang na-una..

Mauna nakong bumati..

MALIGAYANG KAARAWAN!

Puno sa ligaya ang aking hangad sa'nyo, at tamis na walang hanggan. Isang pagbati mula sa puso.

--MICKEY CELLES

8 fingers

2005-09-05T22:01:00.000+08:00

So now I'm 8 (eigth) fingers. I got injured in basketball and my left hand's middle finger and the other one to it's left suffered a terrible sprain as I dove for the ball for a steal. So I dove, got the ball, spun 2x on the floor, then passed succesfully to my waiting team mate.

Unfotunately as I got up, I felt a funny sensation on my left hand's two fingers, and then I said, "BALI", "nabalian ako". hahahah! I think that was really funny I said that as if I was surprised na nabali, eh kalokohan ko kasi nag-dive ba naman ako sa sementong court.

Lesson learned: Don't watch SPRITE commercial before a basketball game since the court doesn't actually turn into a swimming pool. =)

To Patricia Leticia D.R. Ramos

2005-08-28T10:56:00.000+08:00

Salamat sa lahat ng magagandang ala-ala! I wish you all the best! ANd I bid adieu with all the sweetest goodbyes! And for the last time, let the people know, and I'm proud of it, I LOVE YOU!

Now let's go on with our separate lives. AJA! AJA! Fighting FISH PATTI!

Beda Five for Fighting! =)

2005-08-25T16:58:00.000+08:00

SO finally matutuloy na ang liga samen. Kala ko disaster na yung team namin dahil nung isang araw 7 na lang ang natira at nawala ang mga magagaling aka star players.

So ginamit ko ang powers ko, at akalain mong naging labing-walo kame (18). At akalain mong sinuwerte pa, may mga sumali pa sa team namin bago ako magpasa ng final line-up, at take note: magagaling at ma-a-ayos maglaro! Naging bente-dos (22) tuloy kame. Ang saya.

Di lang yun, may sponsor pa kame, eh may pondo pa kame. Eh di ang saya talaga ng team namen. Pero higit sa lahat, na sobrang kinatuwa ko ay makakasama at makakalaro ko ang mga barkada ko, lima kame, at bawat-isa may angking posisyon. Kaya tatawagin ko kaming lima na BEDA FIVE! hahahaha!

GINO SERRANO - center
CHRIS ZULUETA - power forward
MICKEY CELLES - small forward
OLIVER LIMBO - off guard
EJ MACADENDEN - point guard/shooting guard

Ayam tinamaan ng magaling at nabuo kame ulit! Nga pala sa mga taong naka-ka-kilala samen, tumatanggap kame ng solicit/charity sa kahit anong bagay na pwede nyong ma-i-provide. hehehe.. kontakin nyo lang ako kung nais nyong tumulong sa aming koponan na tatawagin ko LOPE URBAN FIGHTERS!!! AJA AJA! fighting!!!

Broken Hearted (A Fool at Heart)

2005-08-23T10:26:00.000+08:00

I never thought I'd come to this realization, that all I could say is now that I am broken-hearted. I had to think well about it before I decided to face it. My first impression was shock, and then a quick rush of various emotions. Moment wherein you'd feel really down, that is what I felt.

I thought how could she do this. Everything just doesn't seem to be right. How it happened and how it came to happen. I was a fool to wait and to love. My optimism and positive outlook hurt me more.

The first time I read her letter I wanted to cry, but tears wouldn't come out, mayybe because I was feeling anger. I couldn't believe it. I read her e-mail, as the rain poured on yeterday, and the thunder and lightning disturbed my soliloquy. That I lost my internet connection, anyway my eyes were blurred, with tears hesitating to go and of pain overwhelming my sensations. Hobestlty, one of the word I mumbled was, "Ouch".

Why? WHy should this happen to me. Have I been bad that much to deserve all these unbearable suffering? Does love give back pain after I have nurtured it with my entire life's time, devotion and everything I could and couldn't not that I tried to do and to be. I want to say that it's unfair. But love to me has been good too. And I cling on to her goodness.

But you, I gave it all to you, How could you become like this? That quick? Why the haste? Is it to forget me? I think of everything we had and tears fill my eyes. How I shouldn't have waited all those long hours for your reply as I painstakingly await the moment you wake up. And you didn't reply for a week, but I waited.. every single day.

Until the day before I read your letter, I still kept our pictures the way they were, filling my cellphone's memory, in my friendster, on my table and on my cabinet and with my car license. But now I couldn't look at them. I pity myself for waiting. I waited in vain.

Until I read the letter, I was still full of optimism on the word "someday" and "in the future", on the positive thinking that I will be back there again, on having and working on my chances again. On believing in what you told me. That you didn't have time for a relationship. Not now, since Med school have hell of a busy life. But now I think you duped me to believe vague words and I would almost say you lied.

I let you play all the cards in every step until we came to this point, I could've fought back, but that was how much I love you. You could've been smarter and played them well, and said it to me straight. But even if I gave you the very freedom to decide for the best, you played it thinking all for yourself, and left me out like a leper in the street.

It pains me the most that it had to be you to do this to me. How I thought highly and respected you. You could have been nicer to me, after all waht were those 43 months that we had? You let me figure out what you're cooking only because I was able to sniff it, haven't I had a gut feel and asked you, you might have taken longer to tell, and I would ave been a crazy, stupid, son of a bitch waitng for a chance at future that I would never had.

Self-Medication in Practice

2005-08-21T10:38:00.000+08:00

So I got sick, and I thought it's all over, but now I wonder why do I have rashes. I'm not so sure the reason why they suddenly sprouted, I've been observing them for a couple of days now, maybe they were caused by my unconscious incessant itching during and after I got the fevers.

But a thought shared by Oliver scares me, 'coz when I sharedwith him my fever he said, "baka may dengue daw ako", to which I laughed. He even added that you get rashes, 2-3 days after the fever. I don't have a fever, but I have the rashes, so that's half the fact, maybe I only have DENG, not dengue.

None-the-less I think my unusual rashes maybe caused by something else and not dengue or DENG. Maybe I have allergies, but I hardly ate when I got sick, I "ate" alot of medications, maybe I got allergy from them! Maybe too much champorado and sweets caused these red blemishes.

Another cause maybe is again I've developed another pulmonary disorder, like I always do since I was a child. And maybe I'm having inefficient oxygen circulation. But that's just maybe anyway, I feel good other than the rashes on my arms and thigs and occasional headaches, I would have been playing basketball already and hitting the gym.

I'll continue to monitor changes in what I feel and see on my skin, if they don't improve, I'll see the best quack-doctor, er.. doctor! or doctors! and nurses!